Everything Will Be OK
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
I woke up this morning dreaming that I was supposed to be giving a presentation but I couldn't locate it on my MacAir nor remember how to use the finder. A crowd of people were patiently waiting for me. I was fumbling around and panicky. Even more confounding: I had my presentation material down cold. But I wasn't willing to just give it without using slides. What a bad dream!
On twitter today, a friend pointed out this site:
If you go there, click on the big make everything OK button. I did, and it made me laugh and feel a lot better.
It has been way too long since I've blogged.
I've been waiting for everything to be OK before I did (I am about 12 pounds over my goal weight) and have been grumpy about that for months. After all, I exercise nearly every day for an hour (running, studio cycling). I eat maybe 1800 calories a day more or less (haven't been tracking). So why have I been slowly gaining back the weight?
Obviously, everything isn't OK.
I'm 59. My metabolism gets slower every passing year. I'm 5 ft 3. If I check my basal metabolism rate I only need about 1300 calories a day to survive.
Why do I think I can maintain my weight when 1)I don't track what I am eating; and 2) I am not sure how many calories it takes to maintain my weight?
Well...I'm an optimist. I assumed everything would be OK if I exercised enough and ate sensibly (no need to track all the time).
Yet the reality is that I do eat more than I need to maintain my weight. I usually have around 150-200 calories of dark chocolate most nights. I grab a handful or two of nuts for a snack. I eat similar things every day, but I don't know how many calories I consume. I occasionally go on business trips. There are family celebrations where I am aware of eating too much. I know I don't have an underactive thyroid. I have started strength training. But still...
I had been hoping (for the past 6 months or so) that "everything will be OK, if I just kept up with my exercising."
But I've got to come to grips with the fact that I've got to eat less than I currently am now and track what I'm eating. I can't be casual about what I eat. Plain and simple.
And today is a good day to start tracking.
Everything will be OK as long as I keep up my food awareness. I just know it.