Monday, April 23, 2012
Here's an "oh woe is me" blog...do not read if you are in a good mood!
So I have ongoing problems with my son. He is almost 24 and has problems with drugs and depression. He may be going to jail in a few months for several offenses. His girlfriend just got an apartment a few weeks ago and he moved in with her. They were both living with me. She is a GREAT girl. Works full time, goes to Pitt full time, and tries to be a good girl. She knows what my son does but she loves him and thinks he will change for her. She and I go to Naranon meetings a few times a month. I have done everything I possibly can to help him but nothing works. I love him, he's my son. I will always be a part of his life but I have tried to detach and distance myself because it pushes me too far into depression.
Now, my mother fell on Friday and has been staying with me. One of my sisters and I decided she cannot live by herself anymore. She has many health problems and she forgets things quite a bit. I think she is going to live with my sister but will come stay with me more often to give my sister some personal time. Problem is, we all work full time. Who will watch her during the day? She is on disability and has no insurance. Big dilemma that will eventually have to be faced.
Then, one of my other sisters is having problems with her fiance. She left him yesterday and has no where to go. She is the mother to my little nephew. He will be 5 in June. I love him so much and my heart breaks for him. My sister has some mental and health problems too (little bit of a family trend here). She is on disability and has nothing. She may go to a shelter. I don't want my nephew living in a shelter. But what do I do?? I can't afford to pay rent for them.
I know we all have some sort of dysfunction in our families but I could go on and on. I'm empathic and feel real physical pain worrying about everyone all the time. I'm concerned for my family but I'm concerned for myself too.
Sorry, needed to vent....