Monday, April 23, 2012
I must say it is so hard for me to stay motivated right now. I hit a plateau, but rather than my scale remaining stable, it is actually going up. Why so?
I mean I expected it to happen at some point, but after two weeks already? That is so tough. I mean I am not even back into the habit of sparking yet and feel challenged so soon.
I know that plateaus happen and I know it's not me putting on fat rather than muscles or storing more water for some reason, but afterall, I must admit, I am doing this so that the scale shows less.
Having written that I can see that I am not a proper Sparker yet. I should have written something like: "I am doing this for me, to live a healthier lifestyle...". Honestly, right now, that's not what I feel. Working out, measuring portion sizes is all rather tough, so I don't see the benefit of it all. My body is a mean, evil someone right now!!!
Having said that I wonder, whether I will ever get to liking my body the way it is. My feelings and self-esteem seem to be so reliant on the numbers showing on that scale. Do you ever feel the same?
If anyone reading this has felt the same before, yet, managed to stick to sparking and eventually loosing weight again, please share it with me!!! I am looking for motivation - bad!!!
Well, I have to go to work now, but any type of motivation would be greatly appreciated right now!!!