Convincing myself...with positives...
Sunday, April 22, 2012
I am approaching 1 year since beginning my journey to a better healthy life. Last year at this time my life was hard and sad. I was burying my feelings once again with food and extra weight. I found a website for eating disorders and began to address my problem from a spiritual standpoint. That is where I learned of the Spark website. It was also at this time that I stepped up to regular exercise committing to just two days of step aerobics. A good friend has a small women's fitness place that she let me use to lead a class of a few ladies. About 6 or 8 of us committed for the month of may and continued through June. Momemtum wained and summertime took over. I was left to step the months of July, August , and September basically by myself. BUT I DID IT! I also joined Spark in July after dropping a couple of pounds with the step class and laying off of junk binges. I then added a couple of daysbto my exercise routine with a lot of walking and some informal weights and just plain old boot camp moves. I have since lost 40 lbs as of Jan 1st. Since then, I have gained 9 lbs playing back and forth on the scale with 2-5 of them. My goal was to maintain a month or so and then hit for the final 15lbs for the homestretch. That has now turned into getting this Miserable 9lb gain off of me! It was self sabotage of emotional, compulsive binging when things got rough at home again that put it on. SO now things have settled and I remembered that I promised myself that I would not go back to my old way of life using food for comfort. I have been back on track for a couple of weeks. Ramped up the exercise and food tracking. Having difficulty with cals but no binge...scale isn't moving much but my body is changing for the better. I remind myself that I am still in Onderland and still 33lbs lighter than one year ago in May when I set forth in this direction...that is a POSITIVE!
Thank you Spark people mad friends for sharing the Spark!