Sunday, April 22, 2012
Date of Writing: 4/3/2012
I am on day 6 now, and I'm finding it oddly difficult to find my appetite. I've only had two shakes today and it's 7:25, but I'm not even hungry for the third. I certainly still crave food, and certain foods in particular (those Fritos in the cupboard are calling to me, and I've visited them occasionally to make sure they're doing ok, but I haven't eaten any yet). But it's more of a psychological hunger, not a physical hunger.
Actually, that has been one of the more instructive parts of this process. Having to reacquaint myself with what hunger feels like, and doesn't feel like, is really useful. It reminds me of how rarely I used to eat because I was actually hungry. Right now, the only reason why I'm eating is because I need the energy for my body so I don't get weak. Eating for fuel rather than hedonistic pleasure--radical thought.