The Power of Pain
Sunday, April 22, 2012
I have certainly had pain before in my life -- skinned knees as a kid, childbirth (but a great outcome), gallbladder removal. And then there is the dull pain in my hip since November 2010 which led to my hip replacement three weeks ago tomorrow. But all of this pain has been for a short duration even if intense. Or it has been dull and nagging, but not incapacitating. That is until this past week. For a week I had intense pain that even the narcotics dulled only so much while dulling my mind a lot. This fortunately is over as the infection in my hip has finally responded to antibiotics.
Yesterday was the first day since before the surgery that I have not taken any painkillers. One effect of the pain is that all of the controls I have on my eating went out the window. In the hospital, meals became highlights of the day. Once food service understood that I really needed to have gluten-free food, they found all kinds of things for me in the freezer - bread, corn muffins and ----- cinnamon buns. These were little death bombs and I ate every crumb.
But I am back on track today.. Hopefully I will never have such severe pain again. But if I do, I will be watching to make sure that I don't slip back into the old uncontrollable eating ways.