Sunday, April 22, 2012
How self conscious I used to be around people I don't know. We were at the bowling ally for Jake's party yesterday and there were 8 other children from his class coming. I'm not able to be very active in either of my kid's classrooms because I work full time and I really have not met many of the parents. As the kids were coming yesterday, I was standing around with some of the parents, and I had all of these thought bubbles start popping in my head. "He doesn't know you used to be fat(ter)" as I offered one dad ice cream. "I'm not that much bigger than her" as I was chatting with another mom. "I feel pretty normal now" as a few of us were discussing our summer plans.... I had NO idea that these kinds of things were, at some point, an issue in the back of my head. These weren't "bad" thoughts I was having, just things that were coming to the forefront of my brain. It was very strange, and almost out-of-body like. This has never happened to me before, and I don't know if anyone else has had this happen, but I just thought I'd share.