Heartbroken & TOTALLY off track!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Monday night my son and his wonderful fiance called off the wedding and separated. It wasn't a decision they took lightly and the parents had seen it coming (but hoped otherwise) for about a month. It wasn't that they don't love each other it was just that their goals and dreams didn't match anymore. They have been together 3.5 years and engaged for 2.5 and now life is just different for each of them.
I am just heartbroken - I truly thought of her as my daughter - it feels like part of me has been ripped off. I know part of it is that she is the same age as my daughter Ashley would have been had she not died as a baby. The two were always sort of mixed up in my head. I am just so sad for them and all of us.
So I have been WAY off track all week - ate CRAP - don't believe a vegetable has passed my lips unless it was coated in cheese since Sunday night.
I have cried, taken long baths, pouted, played on Pinterest until I believe I have seen every pic on the internet and just had a big ole pitty party for the last week.
Today I am getting back in the saddle - figuratively of course - horses still scare the cr*p out of me. But I'll walk again today, and eat healthier and log my food - and probably cry a little because I get to see her for the first time since the breakup.