Saturday, April 21, 2012
Okay, so I have been stressed all morning which is NOT a good thing. My fiance is upset with me...again. Sometimes I wonder why in the world I am with him. Like, he causes so much stress in my life because I have a fear he is going to end it with me for something stupid. He's split up with me once and now that I know he has done it I keep thinking he's going to do it again, even though I know he won't. Because he's said he won't. I have hardly eaten because of how stressed I've been. If he would just not get mad at me and jump on my cause every few days maybe I wouldn't be sick all the time with pains and what not. I need to have a long talk with him today if I get to see him. My heart is pounding. If I get an "I love you." from him, then I will be calm and not have an ounce of stress on me. But, right now, I am positive my blood is pumping and that I am on the verge of sickness and starvation. When I'm stressed I do not eat. That is why I have not eaten much today. As soon as the argument is over, I MAY eat. That is if I can find food. But as of right now, stress is my main issue.