Saturday, April 21, 2012
Well i have reached an all time high. I made myself weigh this morning and it took me awhile to get over it. I weighted 354 pounds. As you can see I decided to eat what I wanted and not do any more moving than I had too. Well here I sit scared to death that I will have a stroke or a heartattack. I would not even look at Spark to get help. I know this has to stop now. I really do want to live. But my actions say different. What is wrong with me that fast food, sweets and junk are more important to me than having a life that I enjoy. I very rarely go any where where I have to walk. It hurts too much. I wear the same old big clothes. I want to have fun, wear cute clothes, go to interesting places with my husband . All I know to do is start this day eating healthy, walk as far as I can, log my food in at Sparks, check in everyday and read other peoples struggles and victories.
If anyone reads this say a little pray for me that I get my life back.