Friday, April 20, 2012
I'm cranky. ROYALLY cranky.
I feel like I'm plateauing, but it's also possible that I'm just being impatient. With my Max Muscle consultant flaking out on me, I haven't had an official weigh-in or body fat measurement in what seems like forever. Consequently, I have no idea if I'm actually plateauing or not.
I feel like I need to switch things up to jumpstart my progress again, but not sure what to change - I feel lost, floundering. I've also been following a lot of supposedly motivational weight-loss / health pages on Facebook, but realize that when I really think about it, what they really do is make me feel inadequate. One page swears the way to health is paleo vegetarian. She says you can be healthy AND feel satisfied eating kale and beets. Really? In her defense, she also ruthlessly shoots down nutritional myths like fruit makes you fat, but mostly when I read her posts I feel like a loser because as much as I believe vegetarian would be good for me, I know I can't do it.
Another page claims that you can get the leanest, sexiest body of your life without cardio. Just strength training and their eating plan. That's the leanbodiesconsulting.com I looked into yesterday. SURPRISE their program is 1.) very expensive at $300 / month 2.) apparently in very high demand because there's a waiting list to become a client, and 3.) the owner is blunt to a fault and would likely end up just pissing me off. I don't take kindly to someone telling me my goals are irrelevant stats without offering an alternative - even when I ask for it in a follow up question. Made me feel like Adam Sandler in "Anger Management" when Jack Nicholson asked him to tell the group a little about himself and every answer he gave was wrong.
Yet another page is mostly espousing the power of positive thinking type stuff, but they also spout off about muscle-building and nutritional myths and the profile picture of the shirtless, ripped owner is intimidating.
While these pages on their own are not harmful - weight loss studies show that it doesn't really matter WHAT program you follow as long as you stick to it - they all seem to offer conflicting guidance and I think it's contributing to my stress / frustration. Even Farrell's and Max Muscle don't agree on their nutritional guidance. I feel like a FemBot whose robot brain is overloaded with Austin Powers mojo resulting in a system shut down. Only I don't get the benefit of the the Austin Powers mojo dance.
Even though I've modified / relaxed my Max Muscle eating plan, I'm pretty much eating the same thing every day. This is mostly for simplicity's sake for me. I can pop a frozen salmon fillet in the microwave for 2 minutes and dinner's ready. However, today I found myself feeling a general case of the munchies. I'm guessing it's the result of a lack of variety in my diet, but I'm not entirely sure. I made sure to have some red meat for dinner tonight, but I'm still feeling unsatisfied / restless.
After doing this for a bazillion years, I'm losing patience. I want to be LEAN. I know that I'm a satisfactory size, but I feel like I should be able to get leaner and I'm getting cranky that I'm not getting there. Admittedly, I don't KNOW if I'm getting there since I haven't been able to weigh in. So, starting tomorrow I'm going to start actually USING the bathroom scale I got for Christmas. Although weight isn't the best indicator for me, it's SOMETHING. Then, when the owner of my gym gets back, I'm having her check my body fat.
As to my budding OCD about my body composition, I'm going to "unlike" the Facebook pages that make me feel inadequate. I'm also considering loosening up my nutrition plan. Maybe I'll let Sparkpeople tell me what I should be eating next week and see what happens. Although, we have a mid-session weigh-in next Saturday, so maybe I'll put that part of the plan off for a week...