Friday, April 20, 2012
This weekend is a minor "Sparkversary" in terms of the time but seems an appropriate place to have a bit of reflection. When I did the nursing degree and they taught us how to reflect I thought it was bonkers because we all know how to look back....but there was a method to be learned and a discipline which guides you through the process.
Sparking has the same effect. I "know" how to eat well and therefore lose weight but somehow the guidelines worked to keep me on track. I try to log in every day and keep up with the other members of my teams as they share their blogs. Reading other people's blogs often give you that "aha!" moment when something clicks into place. Very often it's something so simple I wonder how I hadn't noticed it for myself.
I have experienced the "plateau". From Christmas there didn't seem to be much weight loss going on. I was still recording my food and noticed a few things that could be put right. Lots of travelling seem to slow the progress as I don't drink enough those days. The egg sandwiches are counted and part of the daily allowance but perhaps only 500mls of water instead of 2litres during the normal journey time. We drink tea in mugs hourly when we are at home together, mine is black so not much more than flavoured water.
I have joined the 5% challenge team. I only managed 2.9% in the winter challenge but the Spring challenge is going much better. As the tasks are weekly there is no excuse for me to fail. I enjoyed finding a 9" plate to use for a week, I have used it for my lunches to remind me about size control.
I have noticed I don't clock up the same number of calories when I enter my cardio sessions on the tracker. An hour of aquafit no longer crosses 400 callories so I a going to have to do a couple of lengths to keep up the numbers. There was some advantage to carrying the extra weight!! I still haven't been able to see the trainer for my mid term assessment (due in Feb) as she has been sick. However I have used the scale and body fat measure and the numbers have reduced. My appointment is on Tuesday next week, let's hope she keeps it!
My tastes have changed. There are 3 bottles of ketchup in my cupboard unopened. They have been there months (I buy when things are BOGOF) and are likely to go out of date before they get used as I am "eating clean" and only get fish and chips as a treat these days. I do still like brown sauce on a cooked breakfast but that only happens when we have visitors.
My clothes are getting smaller. I was wearing 26/28 tops (even bigger in cardigans) and 24/26 trousers. My size 16 jeans are beginning to slip so I will be ordering smaller next time they are on offer. I have a pair from a charity shop which cost a pound, they can have them back to sell again! The coat I bought last December (after much agonising) is loose. I don't wear it much as I tend to grab my fleece for the beach, it's a trophy to losing inches although there weren't many pounds lost.
I noticed my husband doesn't seem to snore so much. When I mentioned it to him he said he hadn't heard my either. I don't know if I have reduced the snoring but as I have lost fat from my short neck the chances are good.
The psychological side of the weight loss has also been interesting. There has been quite a change in our lifestyle with the move to Kent. I have not had paid work for almost 2 years. I used to "need" to work for my sanity but it brought lots of anxiety which was self medicated with chocolate. I was too tired to cook so we ate out/takeaways most days of the week. I now cook virtually every day and prefer to know what I am eating and how it was cooked. I don't want fried stuff if I can grill it at home. I am happier with our domestic arrangements than I ever was when I was working. Although I make no financial contribution I do not feel I am the junior partner. My husband is doing more maintainance in the houses than he did when I was working too. He is happier, even though he would chose to play on his computer left to his own devices! He is always ready to walk the dog on the beach and has lost about 3 stone along the way. As I am still overweight I'm not yet plagued by the "who am I?" questions that have bothered me in the past. The weight loss is steady, could be faster but I am happy for it to be this rate. I have time to adjust, seeing a slightly different face in the mirror when I clean my teeth. I am not (and I suspect never will be) happy looking in the full length mirror. That's OK, I check to see if I'm tidy and then leave, not spending too much time finding fault. My body is not for the world to see, I am the person inside the body and that is the person that that counts.
This might seem a bit of a ramble but it's here to mark a milestone. I certainly haven't finished my healthy journy. There is a good way to go and several more important markers to pass. I still need to lose a large number of pounds but broken into small chunks there will be little celebrations along the way. I pass a British stones loss in a couple of pounds, pass into "onederland" in a few more so that is something to look out for. There will be another badge following those achievements so keep watching this space!
Thank you dear Sparkfriends for all your encouragements and comments. I appreciate them all, you are a wonderful crowd. I would love to meet up with some of you one day. I know it isn't possible to meet you all, most of you are several thousand miles away, but I hold you as dear as my far flung family who we rarely see but still care about. If anyone in the UK fancies a meet up I'm happy to travel, send me a Sparkmail, we can do this!
Next thing to do? make an appt with the doctor and get the blood pressure meds reduced, I am well within normal limits, the NHS could do with the saving!
Thanks for wading through this, go have a cuppa, you deserve it!