Thursday, April 19, 2012
Today was my rest day for the start of the week. When I started the program, I wanted to get going and not put it off a couple of days. I did mostly skip the workout yesterday morning. I got thru the first two warm-up rotations and then just completely lost my drive. I was so tired. I stayed up too late the night before. I had every intention of getting the workout in after work, but life got in the way and before I knew it, it was too late to do it. I was pretty bummed and I could feel the difference. On the days that I put in the work, I feel great. My body feels years younger - and I've never been in great shape anyways. In the first two weeks, I lost over an inch on my waist, an inch on my hips, an inch total on my thighs and about half an inch total on my calves. I haven't measured this week yet, but I'm hoping for some more progress. What has me so bummed besides being tired, is that damn scale. Every morning I check my weight, only to see it increasing. I've gained 7 lbs since starting this program. I know that whole bit about gaining muscle and muscle weighing more than fat, but come on, at some point the scale has got to go down, right? I know that I am so much more than that number on the scale, but its so freaking frustrating. I'm putting in the work but its not showing up in the numbers. At least, not those numbers. I do feel awesome! Lots better than I have in a long time. My clothes do fit better. My mental state is so much clearer and less stressed than it has been for a long time. I can look and count all these positive changes that are happening, but that number still bothers me. I guess I'm kinda afraid that if that number doesn't go down by the time I end this program, I may not get my shirt. It might seem silly, but I want that shirt. I want to prove to myself that I can set that goal and accomplish it. I think overall, I just need a really big shot of motivation. And maybe rambling on like this is just what I need to clear my head and get things going again.