I'm on track to make minimal progress again this month. Still measuring the same that I did at the end of last month. I am so confused and frustrated. I am working my behind off, working on eating well and trying to keep my workouts intense and varied. I was seriously ready to give up. NOT go back to being unhealthy, simply continue doing what i'm dong and just maintain. Give up my goals of getting smaller. I seriously don't know what to do anymore. I know I binged hard over easter weekend but for one weekend to ruin an entire month is ridiculous. To me that would make the whole thing not worth it. There will always be weekends where I eat wayyy too much candy and those once a year kind of treats (like my moms home made nut roll YUM).

However Today I thought about how much progress i've made since january, I had a nasty backslide when I hurt my foot and was at the point where my pants were all too tight. Well now they are super loose!! Somehow though the majority of that progress happened in the first two months of the year and now i'm stuck. It cannot be a plateau, i "restarted" with the new year. I change my workouts. I've even changed different things in my diet to see what might helps (lowered carbs, cut as much sugar as I could, upped protein etc). The only things I can think of are to really really really cut out carbs and to quit all proccessed foods. I don't eat terribly by most standards but there is always room for improvement. Unfortunately neither of those things are appealing to me, I think i'd rather stay bigger and be able to enjoy what I want.

What I may do is change my workouts further. Stop new rules of lifting and instead make a Jillian Michael's workout routine. I'm sort of tired of lifting heavy, i loved it at first but I think i'm burnt out and frustrated with that too. I'd of course use one of Jillian's weight workouts (shred or whatever) because strength training is important and use a weight that challenges me. And for cardio use her banish fat boost metabolism and fast fix kickboxing. I'm also considering cutting my calories a bit. I eat 1700-2100 now depending on my workouts. Maybe make it 1500-1800. Saturday will always be a bit of a cheat day (i like to drink or enjoy some ice cream depending on what i'm doing that night). I'm just seriously sick of working so hard and feeling like i'm getting so little return!