Trying to Find the Spark - Will Need All the Help I Can Get
Thursday, April 19, 2012
I hate to say it, but no secrets for me because secrets turn into shame.... I had another, what I'll call, "episode." It happened a couple weeks ago, where I went on a complete carb binge and lost control. The binge itself was better this time (that's not to say it wasn't horribly out of control, just better) but the problem this time was I didn't exercise at all. What I've come to accept that a healthy lifestyle isn't just diet OR exercise - it's both. That being said, I felt like crap and blah blah blah. It sounds silly, but I stepped on the scale the day after and gained 4+ lbs in one night. I just feel like all this hard work I've put in to get under 180 has been wasted. It's one step forward, and 5 steps back. Now, don't get me wrong, I know that's irrational. I know I have lost almost 45 lbs - that is no where near the 4 that I may have put on.
If I'm perfectly honest, here's what I'm scared of: I'm scared of letting this be the beginning of the end. I leave for vacation tomorrow and I know I won't be as good as I normally am while I'm there. I don't want to lose motivation!! I've been on a business trip while living healthy and there's no reason this weekend has to be any different.
I'm going to carve out time to run outside and hit the gym. I can still manage to find healthy food options while I'm there (with 1 night exception to get my favorite curry known to man). This is important to me to prove to myself that this is not a diet. This is now my lifestyle.
In case you can't tell, I have a good way of talking myself off the ledge so to speak and getting motivated, but I'm going to need the support from you all too.
Thanks for listening to my little rant... time to get back off my behind and live life to the fullest! x