Thursday, April 19, 2012
My question today is why does eating help manage my stress? I mean really it doesn't help at all in the end. I guess it gives me some comfort during the eating process but afterward I feel even worse for eating bad. So why do I play this round and round game with myself?
The reason for today's topic is I HAVE A TON OF STRESS right now! On average I live a relatively low stress life so when the ball drops and everything seems to fall in my lap at once I shut down. In the past month or so my father in law has been in and out of hospital, a few time we didn't think he was going to make it. My dad has had two and getting ready for his third surgery. My Grandma fell off her four foot porch broke a bone in her next and has had three surgeries on her legs plus so much more. Now this weekend my baby brother ( who is not a baby he is in his 30's but never done anything on his own) is moving states away for a good job.
With everything going on I have ate myself in to a 30lb weight gain. I am at the point that I cant keep going this way and that's one of the things that brought me back here.
Now I ask again why do I play this game? I know whats happening during and I know what the outcome will be but I shove the food in anyway. Am I crazy? I guess my next question is how do I change my bad behavior? I am acknowledging it, now on to step two to actually changing the behavior. BUT HOW?
Well today I am taking a kind of mental time out! I am shutting down my computer after I post this, leaving my phone in the house going outside and working in my garden. Just me the dirt and some tough weeds (maybe my ipod lol).
Motivational Quote of the Day!
We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act but a habit.