I have had a crazy week. Stressed to the max.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

So many things have happened and so many thoughts are swirling 'round my head!

Last Thursday, my really good friend's little brother tragically committed suicide. There were no warning signs and it was COMPLETELY out of the blue. Absolutely, absolutely horrible.

I don't think I can take living in my father's household anymore. His depression is overbearing- when you walk in the door, you can't help but to be drawn down with him. So many people have told him kindly that he needs help and that he has lost control overhimself, but he is in denial and refuses to listen. I've grown numb, honestly. We've never had a true relationship and I don't see that changine, because he won't change. I am stressed out ALL the time, because he takes such poor care of himself. I await the day when I get the call saying he has finally had the heart attack that will do him in. I don't know what to do anymore. He won't listen to anyone. I am entering the prime of my life (and college next year) and am tired of being weighed down, depressed, and anxious all the time. I really don't know where to turn and would really appreciate some advice.

Needless to say, I haven't exercised much lately and I feel horrible. I've also given up gluten (mom and aunt are celiacs, I don't react well to it and am trying to see if being gf will make me feel better) and I have a pop calculus TEST on Friday, covering three chapters, which I only learned about today. I am stressed to the max and and feeling pretty down...
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  • ALICIA214

    Have you looked for a support group in your area? I think they may be a
    great help to you,it seems to lighten the burden when you are among those
    who share the same problems,these groups usually have a counselor
    present.I do hope things get better for you.
    I am sorry about your friend's brother, what a horrible tragedy.
    2164 days ago
    I don't know what to tell you about your dad, but hopefully things get better. And I'm sorry about your friends brother, that's so sad. I know it sounds lame, but trust me, things will get better. I'm not saying they'll get better tomorrow, but you're going to college, and post secondary is an amazing experience. It can change the way you view the world and the value of the things you have.

    Can you go to the library and study for your test? A different setting might help release some of that stress and get you away from your dad's negativity? Personally I find some cardio helps when I'm feeling really upset lately (Like Today stressing over my final I wrote tonight).

    2164 days ago
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