ugh, so that restart was a bust. after coming back to spark and doing well for only a couple days, I fell entirely off the wagon again.
fastfood, cake, cookies, back to my old ways and in excess.
I have gained back about 15 lbs, and it all came right to my belly. I feel guilty, ashamed and disapointed in myself.
I dont know how anything is different, i simply cant get back to it.
maybe part of it is because im depressed again, and some of me just doesnt care, but then when i put on my pants and theyre too tight, i cry.
ugh
i wish there was someone to do this with closer tohome.