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    GREENFOXFIRE   4,678
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im back (again) :(

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

ugh, so that restart was a bust. after coming back to spark and doing well for only a couple days, I fell entirely off the wagon again.
fastfood, cake, cookies, back to my old ways and in excess.
I have gained back about 15 lbs, and it all came right to my belly. I feel guilty, ashamed and disapointed in myself.
I dont know how anything is different, i simply cant get back to it.
maybe part of it is because im depressed again, and some of me just doesnt care, but then when i put on my pants and theyre too tight, i cry.
ugh
i wish there was someone to do this with closer tohome.
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CKMATHERLY 4/25/2012 5:25PM

    Depression sucks the life out of you. You have to get it back. I agree with talking to your Doctor. And little excerise can help that too. It's amazing how much better I feel on a "sad day" after a walk in nice weather or a round of Zumba on the 360. emoticon

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BLUE42DOWN 4/19/2012 2:16AM

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I have missed you and your many fine foxes.

Have you been talking to the doctor about the meds? If you're still fighting the depression and taking them as prescribed, it seems like it's about time to revisit how they're working (or not) for you.

Even if you're not quite up to getting back on the wagon, what about just changing a few little things. You say you've been eating "in excess" - so start turning things around by simply eating what you would consider to be not excessive. Try to get up and do something, dance or walk, for at least 10 minutes a day, enough to get your heart rate up. Don't worry about it being enough to "lose weight" - just do it because it can help you feel better.

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THE_BATGIRL 4/18/2012 12:42PM

    Awwww! You can do it - you have your sparkfriends! :)
I totally feel you on the whole depressed/not caring and then feeling awful. I try to remind myself that it's not an all or nothing game, so even if I gain weight, I can try to do one or two healthy things to try to get myself back on track. :)

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