Tuesday, April 17, 2012
It's always so easy to be motivated...about tomorrow. Every night I convince myself that I can do this! Tomorrow I'll make the change! I feel so bad about all the poor choices I made today. I didn't work out and went out to dinner again...so tomorrow I just won't do those things. Easy.
Then morning comes.
Turns out getting up 15 minutes early for a nice walk is much harder than hitting the snooze button three times. Then lunch comes and goes at work and I didn't manage to get out of the office. Then I have Zumba right after work, no time for dinner. After Zumba I don't want to cook so I go out. Then I get ready for bed thinking about how tomorrow I'll make a change.
Easy enough to think things. To say things. I've made calendars and read books and figured out what I could do. I've tried big changes and little changes and all kinds of incentives. Sigh. I just want to feel good. You wouldn't think that's so hard...but it is. I'm not happy with my body, but I don't do what I need to do to change my body. Suck.
I just wish I knew what it would finally take to get me there. What will be my turning point? I guess I'll find it eventually. Until then, I'll just try to keep my head above water.