Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Obviously I have proven not to be such a good "blogger!" I keep waiting for something huge to say, like I've just had a life changing epiphany!
Nope. I got nothing.
When I was first banded, I thought, "OK, no more struggles, no more obsessing about my body, food, exercise." Boy, was I so W*R*O*N*G! All of those thoughts are still there, some days right on the surface, others deep down inside. I also thought that I would be a star banding patient like some of the lucky ones that get a few fills and that's it. Not me, I've had quite a few fills, over-fills, unfills, and I still don't have restriction. (We're working on that since my unfill in March.)
Even though my thinking was wrong on many levels, one thing is for sure, I'm in this for the long haul and I have absolutely no regrets. I'm realizing that every day that I have learned some type of lesson is a good day. Whether it be about me, my diet, my exercise, my life...I keep learning. I guess that's what makes this a never ending process.
This is my journey, and although it hasn't been an easy one, I have loved it and look forward to continuing it for many, many years!