Well, permit me to use that heading today, am so short right now and I need to write. Yesterday was not a too good day for me as I was in pains from AF. I almost gave up on myself yesterday but somehow all I needed was just to look inwards and I had to gather strength to analyse myself and try to move on.

If I may go back in history, I started AF at age 12 now am 36 and I had always had pains, sometimes they are quite unbearable even with pain relieves, other times it comes unnoticed and in few hours I go on my daily rank of duties. I saw PMS (overeating, bloating, sugar cravings, waist pain/cramps, moodiness) as normal for me but when I got married and started TTC, I read articles and realized it may actually not be normal. But up till last year, the doctors here don't seem to find a solution to my problem. So on my own I decided this year to take the path of herbs/alternative medicine and food supplements (of course with prescription from experts), but trust me its draining my purse. There are reviews around here that some of them work better than the orthodox medicine. I only bought them, I have not started using them.

I also had a case of fibroid (which may be the reason for heavy/clot periods) which I operated in 2007 but now I have a re-growth of the remnants, though still small are giving so much trouble unlike when they were larger 4 years ago pre-surgery. I really thought of it all and I was almost in despair yesterday, but that is why I love this community, I can pour my heart as I am doing now and feel lighter.

Another major milestone ave jumped is number of days of the flow which had reduced from 6 days to 4 days now. I hope that stays permanent though, I was using a specially prepared sanitary napkins which I feel had also helped a lot.

Anyways, am much better today and I am facing the next cycle with more hopes than I have ever had. If I may also confess I think the past cycle had been with much sodas and caffeines and I know they are not good for flows, I have learnt my lesson and I promise not to be careless next time.

Good news, my sister is coming to town tomorrow (she has two lovely girls), today is also her birthday. Guess what gift am giving to her ... SPARKPEOPLE. I will make sure she loose all that baby weight. She is bigger than me now and she used to be the slimmest and the healthiest/strongest.

My week 3 running plan starts tomorrow God's willing.


Thanks for reading, pls cheer me up Sparkies.