Tuesday, April 17, 2012
No I have not been sleeping or being lazy. I have been tracking my food and checking in with SP everyday. I think I have discovered a few things about me and it has to do with the expectations I have for myself. I am spending too much time in the future tense and not fully living right now. I have a strong connection with what is important to me: health happiness and a positive attitude. My secret passion is creative self expression. All this goes by the wayside when I am overly concerned with what is going to happen , how smart I can appear and how successful I can be. I am pretty good at letting go of the past and also good at jumping on the next train of thought that comes along. In doing so I miss out on RIGHT NOW. I want so much to be perfect and to be sure of what will happen that I miss out and don't take note of the providence before me.
Time for this girl to wake up and live" WONDER" fully aware of the adventure, with love, kindness and compassion for myself. Not in some imaginary tomorrows and not in some dream of what could be, if only.