Monday, April 16, 2012
It's been a rough several months. I've accomplished running my first half marathon and am training to run my second half marathon in just under two weeks. I'm feeling good and making progress. Jeff Galloway intervals ROCK my world and my knees are soooo much happier after I started applying JGs training methodology.
How can that be rough?
Running has been just a part of my life. I started a mindfulness practice and it dredged up all kind of stuff I have had difficulty coping with.
Enter psychotherapy! I've been seeing a therapist to work through the issues that have bubbled up due to mindfulness. I own my pain. I feel my pain. I work through my pain. I'm learning how to relate to people better so that my needs get met.
Now a few reading this might think, I can't get my needs met and my family and friends should know how to meet them. Well, that's not the case. Letting those we love "guess" at what needs we need to have met is kind of cruel as I've learned.
I'm working through Kelly Bryson's book Don't be Nice, Be Real. It's a book on the use of NVC (non-violent communication) method as a way to manage our inadequacies, how to live with ourselves without compromising ourselves. I've found the book to be difficult to get through in spots because it's like the author is writing about me specifically.
I had to laugh last week when I was having a particular bad emotional moment, I thought that if I was a character on Sesame Street, I would have to be Tickle Me Emo. That's not a typo. I meant to type "Emo".
I make no excuses for me as I am. This is me, no excuses, no regrets, as I am.
May you find peace in journey. I'm finding it in mine.