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Monday, April 16, 2012

I had the PLEASURE of attending the Kansas City Symphony yesterday! WOW! It was an experience I will NEVER forget, especially since I had the privilege of sharing it with my mother! We had the SUPREME pleasure of hearing a BRILLIANT young violinist named Benjamin Beilman. It was BREATHTAKING!

As I contemplated the symphony, I realized that my weight loss journey is much like a symphony, and God is my Heavenly Conductor who painstakingly orchestrates every single detail until it comes together in perfect harmony and beauty resounds.

Do I want to play in this symphony of life??

Or do I want to give up before the melodious sounds of my life are meticulously refined?

I imagine this young man, Benjamin Beilman, made MANY sacrifices to become the famous and gifted violinist that he is today! I must be willing to give up on the WORTHLESS choices for the sake of something that I deem valuable beyond words!

I want to exchange junk food with empowering and enriching life-giving choices!

I want to exchange sitting and relaxing [too much] with living an active lifestyle!

I want to find joy from WITHIN and not seek those externals that can NEVER satisfy!

I want to exchange comparison to others with contentment for how God made me and my unique body composition--I'll NEVER be my skinny sister! emoticon

I probably sound like a broken record, but I'm very much struggling right now to lose 5 #'s! And this is 5#'s MORE than my allowance of a 5# range! That means that I'm 10#'s heavier than I was at my dad's 80th Birthday party last July.



It's QUITE frustrating and discouraging because the weight has gone right to my stomach [a sure sign of menopausal gain! ugh!] but yesterday's symphony taught me a lesson and that is I want to cooperate with my DIVINE Conductor for the LONG haul! I want to play to the beat of His command! Even as a symphony conductor spends hours studying his piece of music, so Jesus has studied me--He understands me, He passionately cares that my music bless my family, my friends, and even those whom I've never met, and He is NOT giving up on me EVEN in my despair! I simply must keep my eyes on the Conductor, and move to His gestures.

I CHOOSE to abandon myself to the process!

I choose to forfeit the temporal comforts for the GREATER trophy!

And I CHOOSE to be JOYFUL in the JOURNEY!!!! emoticon

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
ERIECANALGAL 4/21/2012 12:21AM


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SKIDEE 4/19/2012 7:49AM

    Great analogies! You can do have proven that in the past, so don't let the discouragement hang around. You are already on your way!!

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1COUNTRY_GAL 4/18/2012 7:49PM

    emoticon emoticon Your smile is so beautiful Susan,the blessings you have and are to me.I am so glad I have had the pleasure of meeting you.You have been such an inspiration for me.
I can relate with the weight.I have struggled a very long time and I wonder if I will ever lose weight.The discouragement I feel,I read your blog and once again I feel hopeful that one day I will.THis premenapause stuff sure is challenging and frustrating,I wish I could get a handle on the mood swings and terrible cravings and just feel hungry more than not,ugh! I am a Women,the joys,lol,Huh? I love the way you compared you mentioned about the music Conductor and how he's in the Long Haul and so are we.We can do this,You have already,thank you for posting such an awesome blog,you have such a way of putting things into perspective and so eloquently.Keep being you! emoticon Diana

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NEWLIBRARIAN 4/18/2012 1:09PM

    Hey great blog.
Keep up the good work.
A menopot might be beautiful to God

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KADULAC 4/17/2012 11:15PM

    I love your comparison. God wants what is best for us, and He definitely knows better than us what is best.

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    I sure do love this blog, Susan! I have missed you! It's good to read some of your wisdom again! emoticon

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MWESTICH 4/17/2012 3:24PM

    Thanks again for uplifting words of faith and beauty!

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ABETTERSOUL 4/17/2012 12:31PM

    Great amaze me at how you connect things! It is wonderful how the Lord uses different situations to speak to us. (Hugs) Karen

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MARTHAWILL 4/17/2012 7:51AM

    I always love reading your blogs. You are a gifted writer with such incredible faith. I find myself struggling too to regain that control - and keep it! I believe you and I will get that back and find that comfortable zone again.

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GOURMETLOSER 4/17/2012 4:05AM

    Me too. I love this picture.
Sounds like you are having a wonderful time with your Mum. YAY

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EJOY-EVELYN 4/17/2012 1:01AM

    What a beautiful journey you're on! As a diverse music lover, I love the symphony analogy. I'm reminded on the Arbor Hills (Madison) Bus Buddy who brought her violin to my wedding reception. What a glorious add to the sing-a-long pianist we hired. May we all make beautiful music together as we live in God's joy!

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SAL1512 4/16/2012 11:51PM

    So glad you got to go to that symphony! Who ever would have thought that would result in such an inspiring blog! Thank you so much for sharing!
sally emoticon

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PHYLISSCR 4/16/2012 3:25PM

    So have missed your words of encouragement emoticon and your positive attitude, they are a blessing from God.. emoticon

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HEATHERSUEM 4/16/2012 3:20PM

    Thank you for your blog! It was music to my ears. hahaha emoticon emoticon

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BERRY4 4/16/2012 1:18PM

    Your blog reminded me of a Michal Card song, "Joy in the Journey". -- Maybe you've heard of him?? He is a homeschooling dad.

Sorry for your struggle. I can very much relate, AND your taking the time to share it actually encourages me! In other words, I was mentally beating myself up for adding 12#'s since last Fall. (Argh! And I was w/in 5#'s of goal weight.) -- And yes, I do think this perimenopause season is NOT helping, but God knows about that as well. And ultimately the issue is truly our heart relationship with HIM. That matters the most to him!

I've been dealing w/ my sugar issues and I have hope once again. -- Picked up the book, "Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, Not Food" by Lisa TerKeurst from the library. I'm looking forward to reading what she has to say.

Thinking of you! Sending warm thoughts & prayers your way. emoticon

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THEADMIRAL 4/16/2012 12:24PM

    Thank you for an inspiring blog, Susan! We can do ANYTHING in Christ Jesus our LORD emoticon emoticon emoticon

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VISUALLYRICS 4/16/2012 11:21AM

    Me too! ...Joy is one of my favorite words...such a powerful word! emoticon
Very early this morning I ran...with my conductor, God. Without Him running with me, I'd be lost. I also often hear the voices of my SP freinds here cheerign for me! It is the MOST beautiful choir EVER!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon I will certainly be bending my ear come Race Day this Saturday!!

You know what, Susan? Ever since I began to run, the pounds have been falling off - literally!
Every week, I'm down a pound! Incredible! I have also been faithful to track my nutrition too.

YOU CAN DO IT!!! I'm abandoned with ya! ~ laura emoticon

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JOYFULMOMTO5 4/16/2012 10:48AM

    LOVE this blog, Susan. Keep your eyes on Him & your worth in Him & all will fall into place. In the eternal scheme of things, when Jesus looks at you, he hears a sweet melody, always. :)

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PURPLELVR7 4/16/2012 10:44AM

    So easy to gain a couple of pounds. I am up 4, but like you I have not given up.
I still believe I can will do this.

I know that emoticon

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BAMAJAM 4/16/2012 10:38AM

  Susan, you give me inspriation to "never give up"... and you remind me of the Almighty Conductor who loves us with HIS perfect love! I am in battle to lose about 20 pounds, and I pray for God's grace to help me resist that which is harmful. Why can't healthy food taste as good as the unhealthy kind!! Oh, yes, I know there are those people who say that it does....!!! haha (the slim folks) lol

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BEAGLEMAMA2 4/16/2012 10:28AM

    I really have never been to a symphony before...must be awesome! Sounds like you had fun with your momma! It's nice when you can spend quality time with someone you love and care about!

I love how you compared your life journey with the symphony...I never thought of that! It's a beautiful comparision!

You will loose those last few pounds in no time. Make the right choices and you will see them slip away!


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EBEAMS 4/16/2012 10:27AM

    I try to keep the scripture about "in all thing, give thanks" in my toolbox of coping mechanisms because I've figured out there are some things I am never going to understand ... and some that I won't achieve until I give up and let God have His own way. I am very much a music oriented person and I love that the swell of the emotion in the symphony was something that could translate to courage in your heart, to encouragement to your soul and fuel to keep going. Don't let the 10 pounds be a deterrent to feeling like you are a success! YOU are ... right now today!

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 4/16/2012 10:15AM

    Sorry to hear that you are struggling with those five pounds. Is your body just finding balance? Are you eating well and moving? Hang in there and know you ROCK even if you are not where you want to be right now. Weight loss is often a battle and not just a journey so we have to be ready to fight. emoticon The good thing is not by power or might but by his Spirit. You are the best you there is Susan.

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GRACEISENUF 4/16/2012 10:12AM

    I believe the choices you are making will get you right where you want to be!

Love you joyful Sis!


(glad to hear you are having such a good time with your Momma!)

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