I had the PLEASURE of attending the Kansas City Symphony yesterday! WOW! It was an experience I will NEVER forget, especially since I had the privilege of sharing it with my mother! We had the SUPREME pleasure of hearing a BRILLIANT young violinist named Benjamin Beilman. It was BREATHTAKING!
As I contemplated the symphony, I realized that my weight loss journey is much like a symphony, and God is my Heavenly Conductor who painstakingly orchestrates every single detail until it comes together in perfect harmony and beauty resounds.
Do I want to play in this symphony of life??
Or do I want to give up before the melodious sounds of my life are meticulously refined?
I imagine this young man, Benjamin Beilman, made MANY sacrifices to become the famous and gifted violinist that he is today! I must be willing to give up on the WORTHLESS choices for the sake of something that I deem valuable beyond words!
I want to exchange junk food with empowering and enriching life-giving choices!
I want to exchange sitting and relaxing [too much] with living an active lifestyle!
I want to find joy from WITHIN and not seek those externals that can NEVER satisfy!
I want to exchange comparison to others with contentment for how God made me and my unique body composition--I'll NEVER be my skinny sister!
I probably sound like a broken record, but I'm very much struggling right now to lose 5 #'s! And this is 5#'s MORE than my allowance of a 5# range! That means that I'm 10#'s heavier than I was at my dad's 80th Birthday party last July.
It's QUITE frustrating and discouraging because the weight has gone right to my stomach [a sure sign of menopausal gain! ugh!] but yesterday's symphony taught me a lesson and that is I want to cooperate with my DIVINE Conductor for the LONG haul! I want to play to the beat of His command! Even as a symphony conductor spends hours studying his piece of music, so Jesus has studied me--He understands me, He passionately cares that my music bless my family, my friends, and even those whom I've never met, and He is NOT giving up on me EVEN in my despair! I simply must keep my eyes on the Conductor, and move to His gestures.
I CHOOSE to abandon myself to the process!
I choose to forfeit the temporal comforts for the GREATER trophy!
And I CHOOSE to be JOYFUL in the JOURNEY!!!!