So this week I gained, not sure how that happened:( I exercised last week and pushed myself harder on the bike and treadmill, plus I did sme strength training and pilates.

This week I am starting the carb cycling diet by Chris Powell. The foods that I can eat are the same foods that I eat now. The difference will be that I will eat less calories every other day than I do now, and the other days the max calories will be the low end of my daily calorie range. This will help me to find out if I am eating too many calories. Right now I eat between 1500 - 1800 which are the calories in sparkpeople. I am going to go from 1200 calories one day and 1500 calories the next.

I want to start feeling like I am on the right path and I have figured something out. I want to feel like I am worth being thin. I want to make it. I feel like I make good choices, but I don't see the results I am looking for. Yesterday I wanted Pizza or Chinese Food like crazy, but I didn't eat them. I ate healthy and even at lunch, we grilled. I had my lunch, there was more food left over and it tasted so good. I wanted more, but I didn't take it. I stopped and moved on.

I am struggling with trying to be on this venture without having significant results that make me feel like I am being successful. I want to see the results that I am putting myself first and I am worth being healthy and fit.

Last night, Tony (my husband) put a bike on layaway for me. Now our whole family will each have a bike and we can go riding, outside on trails. I am excited for that because I like being outside.

I am hoping this will be a good start and will make a difference.