Today I am feeling so grateful that I have arms, legs, hands, feet, a mind and body that works pretty well! I know I am more fortunate than many people in the world and I have to remember, on days when my arms hurt so bad it's not easy to even lift hand weights, or when my knees swell and make it difficult to walk or my head aches, my hands are stiff and my neck too, to be thankful! My body has issues from years of not being cared for as well as it could have and health battles, but I do my best to deal with it all on a daily basis. I've never given up, almost, but I'm pretty stubborn and I'm not the giving up type.
I feel like I've got so much more to do with my life, I just need to change my thinking and my attitude about how I see and feel things. I'm a positive person, thinking, speaking and acting positive, but even I have my moments when I feel discouraged and have to work a little harder to pull myself up and out of the murk. This is where a few good friends, (from far away) and here at SparkPeople, the people and support is so important, needed and appreciated! Because I work at home, I love staying home, surrounded in my comfort zone and all the things I love.
I had a feeling with the new year, things were going to change. I felt I was going to be put to the test with some of my fears and have to just put some of them behind me and move forward. I also knew it may not be easy, but I was speaking and believing it would be. *smile* My husband, who's a disabled Vietnam Veteran, is involved with several organizations and is also an officer in two that do a lot of good things for Veterans. I am also involved, but in just the last few months, I've been called to do even more in a much bigger way and inside my heart, I want to do more and be totally involved, but that little voice inside my head is saying, "Oh gosh, that means I have to dress up more, get out more and be out in the public more!" As an Author, you would think this is something I would be used to, but... I'm not, not yet. I have many things in the works and losing weight and increasing how I feel about my self image, on the outside and my energy level, are two things I feel have held me back at times. I do not like flamboyant affairs or having my picture taken. I haven't felt good in my body for a while now and early this year, I felt strongly, all of this HAD to change because so much of my dreams coming true depend on it!
I know many of you understand this, even though I help others learn to find their inner power and let go of the past and heal, I too have been doing this for a long time and I finally feel good inside, now the outside has to follow! I'm learning more here at SparkPeople than I even imagined and being here keeps me going, even if I'm in physical pain, I just keep doing something positive to move my body and build stronger muscles, eat better and be better every day! I get discouraged too, because it seems slow and I have pain, but I know in the long run, it's all going to be wonderful and something I've dreamed of now for a long time. I cannot give up, even if some days are a bit slower than others. I know every day is a new opportunity to change my life for the better and move forward!
Thank you to everyone that's already been so supportive and helpful, I truly appreciate YOU!!
Blessings and smiles,