An undecided mind weighs a lot!
Saturday, April 14, 2012
I never realized how much weight there is when you have a difficult decision before you. I have been struggling for several months with keeping on tract with my weight loss journey but I just have not felt all in, even though I tried. The weight not dropping was depressing and I was getting in to a "funk" and I could not figure out how to get out of it. The answer was made clear on Thursday! I have been struggling with the fact that when my "Baby" (he is 5 1/2) starts kindergarten this year I didn't know what I wanted to do, get a job was what I wanted but what job would be flexible enough that when my kids get sick and I can't work for a week because they all pass it along wouldn't mind? I couldn't think of anywhere that would. So the other decision that I was leaning towards was going back to school, the delima what did I want to go for? I set out from highschool to be a nurse still like the idea, and my aptitude test done by the college had that as the top career path. The problem with this is that since having my 4th kid I have had a rather weak stomach to bodily fluids if you would, and I knew that would not work well with that career choice. I have spent many months hashing out what to do, based on what I like to do and enjoy. I am a firm believer in prayer and knew that God would provide the answer when he was ready and no sooner. Well it finally came to me, I spend 6 to 7 days a week at the YMCA in town doing group classes and solo exercise as well, I have been asked if I would consider taking a position there since I know so many people there and love to chat with people, I will try to convince anyone who will listen why the Y is great and what they can offer. After all I have 4 kids who do programs through the Y. As much as I love the Y I didn't want to take a customer service job with them. So after some prayer and talking with my husband I have decided to pursue the path of personal trainer, now I know I am being optimistic since I am sure not many people would want a "larger" lady trying to help them get fit but my theory is that this will help me as well, I will learn even more during schooling and by the time I am done with schooling I don't plan on being a "larger" lady! I have about 2 years till i will have my license in hand, and from talking with some people they encouraged me to do this, and think that this will be a great help! I hope that by pursuing this that I can tell my story of overcoming the weight gain and be a help to others. I trust that God will lead me in the rite direction for my life and so far this feels rite. I have had such a huge weight lifted knowing what I am going to be doing and knowing that I can still keep up my volunteering at my kids school. After talking with some people they suggested that I actually keep a thorough diary and pictures of my progress so I plan on doing just that! I will be blogging at least weekly and keeping a diary that I update daily (I prefer to write more than type) Have a Blessed Day!!