Friday, April 13, 2012
-Am I the only one who thinks of vampires whenever I see the word 'perseverance'? Lol.I
-I've been wanting to make pulled pork for a while now, but every recipe I come across requires a slow cooker, which I'm paranoid about using. How do you leave the house with something on for that long? Aren't you scared of it burning the house down???
--I've been waking up the last few days with a scratchy throat/stuffy nose, which I assume is a cold coming on, but it dissipates as soon as I get moving.....??
--My keyboard mouse is uber-sensitive, and randomly clicks wherever I leave the cursor at times. Posting blogs in midstream. Super annoying. I'm sure there's a setting to change that, but I haven't explored enough to find it yet...
--I still feel like a dog chasing its tail re: my eating issues. I KNOW what the issues are, I just can't seem to change them. I feel like I'm holding myself back--there's something I just don't want to deal with, maybe because I keep thinking I won't be able to deal with it. I don't know why I do that--things are rarely as bad as I imagine them to be, once I get right down to it. Avoidance, much? lol
--I am sometimes amazed at how much my past still influences the things I do and decisions I make. Just recently realizing how I operate in a constant state of feeling like everything I do isn't quite 'good enough'. Stemming from childhood issues/bullying/ostracizing. I really do see long-term (years) bullying as a form of brainwashing. If you tell someone they're shiite 5 days/week, 10 months/year for several years from the time they're 5--well, if that's not the definition of brainwashing, what is?
--My in-laws are in Hawaii right now with their 5yo and 2yo. I am both jealous and puzzled as to how you can enjoy Hawaii with screaming kids in tow. I suppose the same way you do anything else, though. My oldest niece LOOOOOOVES the water. :)
--I am dreading the day that my niece starts to notice that we don't have all the nice things and big house like they do. Kids, in my experience, have no issue saying things out loud regardless of how awkward and uncomfortable they make people.
--Sometimes putting on the brave face for my DH during job instability is just.....exhausting. I used to be able to talk to my boss about it-but our work relationship has changed, so it's something I just keep carrying around with me. I might write a long venty blog about it sometime.
--I WILL miss certain aspects of my big ol' yard and teeny tiny house when we move. Being a yard's length away from my neighbours being one of them. :p Cleaning my whole house in 2.5 hours is another.
--Somedays I think winning the lottery would fix everything; other days I think about all the new problems it would cause, and decide that winning a smaller amount would be better--about $300k would be perfect. :)
--And, I'm going to be late for work. Later!