Friday, April 13, 2012
..."Staycation" like it's a bad thing!
Dear Powers That Be: I could use a full 7 day retreat, with no schedules, no errands, no fussing or worrying. I'll stay right here, thank you. With my bed, my bookshelves, and my garden. I don't even want to travel, because that might be too much BS...I just want to be left alone for awhile :)
I wish I had a real weekend, even. I lead a totally blessed life, I wouldn't trade it for the world, but when I get up on a Friday sighing with relief that I only have like, 7 things to do today, on top of work, I know life has been hectic. No company tonight, or tomorrow which is nice. We're gaming on Monday, and my best friend and his family are coming over Sunday. I still have to go grocery shopping, and two more stores, PT, and various other little clerical things. When Lawn Season *dramatic music* is in full swing, not only do I assume the household chores almost 100%, but I am a personal assistant to the dudes in the house that work 70 hours a week. It's a good tradeoff, I suppose. The money is nice, but we all have to hustle to make the business work.
At least kiddo is still off from school, and hanging out with me. The fact that I appreciate his company as a fellow citizen of the world (rather than a little kid) is a nice change of pace, he's 13 now, and for the first time I can say he's a total asset, while he's home, as opposed to yet another element I have to care for and look out for. Lately, the paradigm has been shifting, and I find that he looks out for me. I sense him growing up. Just since the new year alone, he's gotten way cooler about things, and much more mature.
Drawing from the Thoth deck, today. It always feels more ceremonial. I rarely turn to this deck as a "daily draw" thing. I stick with Thoth for my big questions. Something made me pick it up, so I'm going with it.
Eating- 6 of Swords, called Science. I see the swords tearing apart faith. I see logic destroying emotion and intuition. I need to be very good about tracking and noticing those numbers. I haven't seen the scale move definitively in a few days. It keeps fluttering up/down/up/down, but not enough to make me put it on my ticker, and I feel a little meh. This is telling me to remember everything I've learned, the facts, not my emotions.
Knight of Disks for Fitness- More warnings from the Universe. The sketchy tendons are swollen again, and I'm going to PT in about an hour. They will tell me to lay off leg-work, and postpone bike riding. Proceed, but with care. What I sincerely love about this card is that even though this knight is girded head to toe in armor, and his horse seems reticent, he is peeping over his enormous shield at a glorious sunrise, at a verdant lush landscape. Don't rush it, it'll all be mine, soon.