Friday, April 13, 2012
Woke up today and put my 9/10 jeans on……….sweet!
That made my morning.
Heading to the gym during lunch and most likely will be doing some kickboxing when I get home tonight.
I went to the weight area at my gym yesterday and I did some new things and that was fun. I plan on doing the same today; 20 minutes of cardio and then 15 minutes on the weight machines.
The other day I spoke with someone about my high cholesterol. Now all of you here know that for the past 14 weeks I have been busting my ass working out and eating better and for the last 3 weeks now I have cleaned up my eating even more.
Now the reason why I didn’t want a lot of people to know about my cholesterol and my slightly elevated sugar is the following:
People THINK they now EVERYTHING.
Of course you get the strange glances when you for the first time in weeks have two spoonfuls of ice cream.
Of course you get all the get fit tricks that don’t ever work.
Of course people ask you “Well do you exercise?” Which I shot back “Yes I lost 20 pounds in 3 months.” In my head I think I called that person a jerk too ha.
Of course people ask you “Well are you eating a bunch of junk? Is that why your sugar and cholesterol is high?”
U%)#()*#$*&(@&)@_*%$%^)*)#_ (That’s me swearing)
After I said I had high cholesterol not 2 seconds later did I regret saying anything to these people who will rename nameless.
I also told one of my co-workers who I thought would understand considering she is in the same boat as me (has a two year old son, was just diagnosed with thyroid issues, same age bracket as me)
Nope…. I told her when we were heating up our lunch and right away she looks at me and my food and asks “Well what ARE YOU eating?” In a very judgy way. In some way insinuating that my high cholesterol is a lack of a balanced diet.
Which by the way my lunch was brown rice, baked chicken and veggies.
It’s so frustrating.
This morning I went to Mcdonald’s and picked up an oatmeal which I put my flaxseed in and I was actually scared what others might think was really in that Mcdonald’s bag.
I hate how people can be so damn judgy instead of sympathetic and helpful.
Why do I get the accusatory questions like my high cholesterol is my own fault and basically I deserve it.
Look my doctor told me that my high cholesterol is a result of my sluggish thyroid and my body can’t process things properly.
But besides my thyroid being the main reason, why does it matter?
My coworker eats great from what I see, but she doesn’t work out and she told me it’s so easy for her to gain weight now that she has a thyroid condition.
I don’t judge her nor do I know what she eats behind closed doors, nor do I care.
This wasn’t the first time she has questioned what I eat either that’s probably why it hit a nerve with me.
It’s like people want this to be a competition, who workouts out more, is more healthy and eats better.
To me it doesn’t matter I don’t do this for competition I do it for myself which is way more mentally healthy.
All in all in makes me not want to say a damn thing to anyone. I guess I wanted some support and I tried to get it from the wrong people.
At least my family is supportive and I can rely on them. My mom has even made special food for me sometimes when we have family dinners and that makes me happy.
Sometimes people just suck.