Friday, April 13, 2012
Ask any of my family or close friend and they will tell you that I have the worstest sleeping habits ever, I often sleep 2 to 3 hours at a time. Usually once at night and once a day. Its a horrible way to live and horrible on the body. I know this, I really really wish I could change it but as I get older it just gets worse. I have been a horrible sleeper since I was a baby. Its just me, I have been to sleep clinics during which time I don't sleep, they get upset and life goes on. I have tried sleeping pills several times but after a little bit with them I feel sluggish and stupid. we've tried to cut them in half, etc, etc, etc. , it doesn't happen , what has worked the best for me is having a cold. I'm not kidding. But in normal life, after a certain amount of time, like several months, I need a break, my body needs a break, my brain needs a break, my body just shuts down. After the stress of the past few weeks and the fact that our life right now is chaotic and I am working out again and watching what I eat, anything can start me up. So yesterday when I got on the scale and it didn't do what it was supposed to. It went up almost a pound I got very confused. Here I am doing all this work and have nothing to show for it. I know that its the stress and lack of sleep thats making it very difficult. I am probably not making much sense, However, yesterday it all just got to be tooo much I haven't been sleeping, I had family here last week which as loving and wonderful as it is its stressful and it makes me batty. So I could start to feel it Tuesday, when I just felt kind of yucky but I powered through then yesterday I felt sooooo tired yet every time I tried to close my eyes I started to have horrible dreams and I just couldn't sleep, but I felt so so so so bad. So when I finally did go to bed and fall out I just kept sleeping. I got up to get the kids to school and as soon as I got them out the door I went back to bed and I am soooo thankful for my hubby because he took care of it all and I slept until 5:30 and felt like a whole new person, it was amazing, I got up said hello to everyone, took a shower, had some quick cereal, threw on my walking shoes and left out for a really good walk, I needed that almost as bad as I needed the sleep. Now its late again and I need to go back to bed so I can have a good day tomorrow
1- I am thankful that my husband and kids are so supportive of me so I could get the sleep I needed today
2- I am thankful that my husband has an interview tomorrow.
3- I am thankful that my son in middle school has such good and understanding teachers, that push him to the best of his ability (hes my LD kid, such an amzing kid and such amazing teachers
4- I am thankful that I have a good neighborhood to walk in, not flat but not to bad once you get off my road, and great people for the most part that I see when I am out
5- I am thankful that the sun was out today because, the past two days were awful, it was cold and grey and was even snowing the other night, it didn't stick but there was SNOW.