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Day 134 Accountability blog - Adjustments needed...

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Oh boy!! I had a rough day emotionally. Nothing terrible happened, but I saw a therapist this morning, and since I have to go back to work in a month, she really had me reassess my life at this point, and what I can do to survive once I go back into "the jungle"!! Then I saw my doctor, who really pushes for me to go back to work. I've been off sick for 6 months now, I know and I want to go back to work, but I have to find some kind of balance in my life, between working at night, the kids, the fact that I am so tired and sick of my job and the night shift, my health journey, plus everything that we all have to deal with on a daily basis. Balance, I need balance!

So, I have always said that my spark-journey goes far beyond "just" losing weight. It's an amazing learning opportunity, and as a whole a journey to health and overall well-being.
My therapist wants me to do a number of things for the next little while, and I just know that some of it won't be too much fun. So I thought I would add those things to my accountability list and really, really try everyday to make them happen.

I usually tweek my goals at the beginning of every month, but this is somewhat of an emergency, so here is my new list of goals. You will notice that I have combined the water and the vitamin goals because those are easy to meet in general. The don't need as much focus and attention as the other goals but I still want to keep them on the list to make sure I don't forget.

1- Exercise 6 days per week, including running 3 times a week and crosstraining 3 times a week.
2- Track my food. Max 1830 calories. No excuses, make it work!
3- 5 fruits/veggies per day.
4- 8 cups of water, calcium supplement and multi-vitamin daily.
5- 8 hours of sleep every night. This is a real problem, and if I want to be able to go back to work, I will need to sleep decent hours at night. This means I have to be in bed at 10pm every night. I will have to show some discipline, STOP procrastinating about sleep and just go to bed. Period!!
6- Meditation: this goal goes back in, and apparently I should not have taken it out. My therapist says I should meditate 3 times a day for 10 minutes. Totally feasable and very much enjoyable, as long as I don't forget!
7- Reading and reflexion, 30 minutes per day. This is new... Again, my therapist wants me to read this book and reflect whenever necessary. She wants me to do some soul searching and this is supposed to help me create balance in my life. Definitely worth the try, but I can see myself not liking it!
8- Continue writing my blog daily. This is helping me so much, the support is absolutely fantastic, and even if I don't meet all my goals everyday, at least I try. It's helping me be honnest with myself as well as others who read it. I am so grateful for this opportunity I have to write and be read by many on a daily basis!

Soooo, after this heavy day, I rewarded myself this evening by going for a run! Nothing better to soothe the mind! I ran 4.56km in 37 minutes, non-stop! I can feel the progress with every run and I love it!! I tracked my food today but went over and finished at 2025 calories. I had 9 cups of water and took my vitamins. I only had 1 fruit and 1 veggie! I won't even comment on the amount of sleep I got last night... I did read and reflect for 30 minutes but haven't meditated yet.

Now it's almost midnight and I am not sleeping, so obviously I won't get my 8 hours. Let's say this officially starts tomorrow night!! So if you see me sneaking around past 10pm as of tomorrow, please tell me to go to bed!!!

Wish me luck with those goals, I think I'll need it. Going back to work scares me a little, but I have to do it. It's just a matter of finding balance... I think!

Thanks again for the support, it means the emoticon to me!!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
LUCKYDOGFARM 4/13/2012 8:28PM

    sorry you had a rough day. the good thing is, you get a new chance every morning! Yay! the faster you get to bed and get to sleep, the faster your new and better day will arrive.
Have sweet dreams, maybe the new book with be boring and will sort of lull you to sleep!

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PUDDLEBY 4/13/2012 10:56AM

    They say if you need something done, give it to a busy person. Sometimes, when life gets busy, you just get more organized. Yes, you may have to adjust a few things (maybe even a little less sparking), but you can still make healthy eating choices and exercise! And yes, sleep will be a priority too. Is a different job an option? Congrats on your run. That is awesome!! We are here to support you through your transition back to work, Fredann.

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MARATHON_MOM 4/13/2012 8:45AM

    I'm sorry it was such a tough day for you, emotionally! It sounds like your therapist gave you some really great assignments every day, though. You may not think you will like the reading, but you might even be surprised!

You know we are here for you if you need us!!

I know how difficult it is to get enough sleep. I would have to go to bed at 8pm to get 8 hours a night.. and with a husband, 3 teenagers and 2 dogs, that's not gonna happen. LOL

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KALIGIRL 4/13/2012 8:25AM

    Here's to officially starting tomorrow night and I love your new goals - adding more meditation and reflection - you are going to be the most 'whole' person!

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FLAMINGOMAMA66 4/13/2012 6:52AM

    I have a problem with the 8 hours at night too! Charlie gets up at 4:30am for work and most mornings I wander out around 5am. I am NOT going to bed every night at 8:30 or 9:00pm. Though we do make it once or twice a week if he is especially cranky at night! :)

Would love to know the name of the book your therapist has recommended! emoticon

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NANHBH 4/13/2012 12:04AM

    Love the new additions to your goals. What is the book that was recommended to you?

Sometimes I work better under a deadline. If knowing that you have to go back to work in a month gets you in bed by 10pm so that you are fully rested, then so be it! I am still really struggling with that goal myself. So, I better get off here so that I can get at least 6 hours tonight!
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