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ENTERING A NEW CHAPTER....

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

WELL IT HAS BEEN A RIDE THE PAST FEW MONTHS. STARTING AT THE END OF OCTOBER WHEN MY DAD LEFT ME,( R.I.P). I MET THIS FELLOW AT WALMART. WE TALKED ABOUT A MONTH. THEN STARTING VISITING. AFTER A COUPLE MONTHS THINGS STARTED TO CHANGE. HE WASN'T AS NICE ANYMORE AND HAD MEAN THINGS TO SAY. I WOULD JUST BRUSH IT OFF THOUGH. IT PROGRESSED, AFTER A WHILE IT REALLY GOT TO ME AND I WOULD JUST SHUT DOWN SO THAT I DIDN'T FEEL ANYTHING. IT'S BEEN ALMOST FOUR MOTHS AND I'M CALLING IT DONE. I DON'T NEED THE BAD TALK. I DON'T NEED TO BE REMINDED WHAT I NEED TO DO. I KNOW I HAVE LOTS OF WEIGHT TO LOSE. I DON'T NEED TO BE REMINDED. I AM DOING MY PART. SOMETIMES I DO GO OFF THE DEEP END BUT I GET RIGHT BACK ON TRACK. I KNOW I HAVE A LONG HARD JOURNEY AHEAD OF ME. I HAVE COME TO FAR TO LET SOMEONE ELSE'S SMALL MINDEDNESS SET ME BACK. I AM A GROWN WOMAN AND I KNOW WHAT I NEED TO DO.
1. GET RID OF THE NEGATIVITY, MAINLY YOU. SO LONG SUCKER emoticon

2. GET BACK TO WORKING ON ME.
A. DAILY WORK OUTS.
B. SNACK AND PORTION CHECKS / making better choices.
C. DAILY MIRROR CONFIRMATIONS (your looking good girl).

3. DAILY PRAYER AND MEDITATING.

I NOW KNOW THAT BY THE BAD CHOICE IN "friends" MADE, I WAS ONLY LOOKING TO FILL THE VOID I FELT AFTER MY DAD LEFT. I KNOW HE WOULD NOT APPROVE OF THE SETTLEMENT I MADE JUST TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP. MY NEW RELATIONSHIP IS WITH GOD AND HE IS GOING TO SEE ME THROUGH ALL THAT I HAVE TO GO THROUGH. BEING MY STRENGTH, MY SELF ESTEEM, MY WILL POWER AND CHEERING ME ON ALONG THE WAY.
I HAVE ENOUGH WEIGHT OF MY OWN TO CARRY WITHOUT CARRYING SOMEONE ELSE'S INSECURITIES. I NEED TO CLEAR MY MIND, LEARN TO LOVE MYSELF AND USE MY TIME TO WORK ON MY GOALS.

THANK YOU LORD FOR SHOWING ME THE LIGHT. I WILL TRY WITH ALL MY HEART TO FOLLOW YOUR LIGHT THROUGH THIS JOURNEY AND BEYOND. I KNOW THAT WITH YOU ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE, AND I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON YOU OR THE TASKS AT HAND BECAUSE I KNOW YOU WILL NOT GIVE UP ON ME. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. AMEN.
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SUNRISE14 4/12/2012 7:45AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon BE VERY CAREFUL SOMETIMES DUMPING SOMEONE LIKE THAT CAN BE DANGEROUS ! emoticon JUST TELL HIM YOU WANT TO WORK THINGS OUT ALONE FOR AWHILE. DON'T BE MEAN TO HIM GOD LOVES HIM AND HE DEFINATELY HAS BAD ISSUES ! I AM HERE FOR YOU MY FRIEND YOU DON'T NEED SOMEONE PUTTING YOU DOWN ! AND REMEMBER YOU CAN'T HELP ANYONE FIND CHRIST BY NEGATIVE ACTIONS BUT YOU HAVE TO BE FIRM WITH YOUR CHOICE AND DON'T BE WISHY WASHY IF HE SWEET TALKS YOU ! emoticon

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NADINEL 4/12/2012 1:55AM

    You are a strong, wonderful woman. You deserve to be treated with appreciation and respect. Good for you for ending this unhealthy relationship.
God is Enough! He is my everything. I am glad you are choosing to take care of you.
I am sure your dad would be very proud of you for your decisions today.
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COCOONGIRL 4/11/2012 6:45PM

    Good job...never ever should we let a man talk mean to us...never! You are right your dad would NOT want you to chose to be with this man just because you want a relationship...allow God to fill that void for you...and HE will.....hang in there...keep making good choices!

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