Wednesday, April 11, 2012
I love to make things. I hesitate to use the word artist because more of what I do is craft rather than art but I flirt with that title. In the interest of pushing myself to grow and produce I belong to a site called swap-bot.com. It's a way of meeting up with other crafters to swap our creations.
So this week I had a swap due for something called a mandala. Mandalas are beautiful meditative creations. The act of drawing them is part of the meditation. Well I had never made one before so I watched some Youtube videos and looked at other peoples work then tried my hand at it. The result was ok but not great. In spite of the fact that I wasn't thrilled with it I was prepared to send it out...till I got one in the mail from my partner. OMG! Hers is amazing. It is intricate and delicate. The shading is lovely and the overall effect is just "Wow!" Even my family of not necessarily artsy people said wow! Needless to say my lackluster attempt no longer cut it. I got out my compass and ruler and my markers and tried again. This time my family looked at mine and said wow!
So what's the point of all this? What does it have to do with diet and exercise? It just made me see how much I accept lackluster efforts from myself. I find myself saying it's good enough. It's just for me. Or my fave...it's good enough for who it's for. Those words need to leave my vocabulary. If it's not good enough for other people then it damn well isn't good enough for me. Of course that's hard to live by after nearly 40 years of accepting second best for myself. But at least that light bulb went on. It's a start.