Wednesday, April 11, 2012
So Ive been away from Spark for a while! Its been a long time since I blogged and I miss it! Here's the deal- I gained back weight during my pregnancy- not all of it but about 30lbs of the 50 I had lost. During 2011 I lost 20+ lbs and thats about it. Since then I have been yo-yo ing up and down the same 10-15 lbs. Soooo frustrating. Id lose ten lbs and then gain it back, lose it gain it. lol Pretty frustrating.
Anyways I have continued to exercise regularly, and I track my food/weight/exercise etc in a notebook everyday so I have not fallen whatsoever, Ive just been struggling. A couple of weeks ago I was racking my brain trying to think of WHY I could not seem to get a real grip on things. I went through old journals from when I had been successful. I realized I had kinda lost that fire, determination and WILL to really truly lose the weight, I kept thinking, "if only I could lose 5 more lbs, etc" I realized that in order for me to spark this fire I needed a REAL goal- one that I would have to bust my butt to reach and also, one that I would WANT to bust my butt to reach.
So I made a goal to lose 40 lbs in 3 months. Tough but I achievable and would make a HUUUGE difference in me, my appearance, my attitude, my happiness, my energy, etc. Then I set up a calendar in my phone so my goals are always rt there and I can see them whenever I need to or want to.
I have till June 20th and I have 25lbs left. I am making changes not only in the way I eat, but also my lifestyle. I'm taking the kids to the park, (a lot) setting up playdates, being way more sociable, reaching out to people instead of waiting to be invited.
In the evenings sometimes I go outside and play basketball or ride bikes with the kids and hubs just to get out of the house. I am learning that you CAN walk away from those cravings.
When I go to the grocery store instead of buying some kind of chips or chocolate, I made this change and it has been HUGE for me: I buy grapes, cherry tomatoes, apples, etc and if Im hungry on my way home, Ill have an apple. Or cherry tomatoes (which I just found out I LOVE)
Another change: Im not picking at the kids food. Im learning that the more I do this the more irrisistable it for me NOT to do it, and over the course of a day it can add 100s of cals.
So anyways, I am loving this and don't even feel TEMPTED to cheat. Kinda weird for me, but I think its a good lifestyle change that I can continue to live with, so wish me luck and Ill keep updating on my progress.
As of today Im at 231, and Im crossing my fingers Ill be solidly in the 220s by next Wednesday when Ill blog again. :)