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Scattered and not sure why

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

First off .... *BLUSH*! It was a couple of days before I even read enough of the comments to realize I had a featured blog, and I felt so completely overwhelmed and behind just trying to catch up with my friend's feed and teams, that I'm only now getting a chance to read the comments on the blog.

I'm glad so many were given new food for thought by my way of applying an analogy. My brain seems to run non-stop when I'm toddling along on the elliptical (or any other cardio, even walking).

emoticon and emoticon to everyone.


So, yeah, as the title says I have been feeling really scattered the last while. I've been trying to think back today to figure out when it started. Maybe as far back as when I paid for the glasses and then had three days of no cell service.

It's not notably affecting my health and fitness journey. I'm loving the gym, loving the workouts. It's not affecting my eating habits. Well, not for the most part.

I had to really laugh at myself last night when I finished tracking my food. See, many days I pre-enter the things I know I'll be eating, then know the room I have for snacks or fillers. Yesterday I had a decent amount of room and knew I had frozen veggies I wanted to eat at least one of. So I made a bag. It's a grocery store brand "Steams in the Bag". Absolutely delicious sweet yellow corn. I ate the entire bag.

Then I went to track it. Searched and didn't find, so entered the data from the nutrition label. Serving size. Okay. Servings per bag ... O_O ... 4? Eh, it's a vegetable. That's nothing to worry about, right? ROFL, well over I went. From eating corn. Unsalted, unbuttered, just simple natural sweet corn. Over 300 calories worth.

Okay, so I was only around 100-110 calories over the top of my range and maybe 30 over in carbs, but it just really made me laugh and shake my head at myself. If I had looked and tracked beforehand, I'd have known better than to eat it all.

Anyway, being scattered. I was consistently reading an ebook. I've been very spotty about doing that. I made a goal for April to track my sleep. I've thought about it maybe three times this month so far - only once on a night I was up past 1:30 am. I was keeping my room neat, doing my chores without fail, keeping close track of my budget - now there's a bit of disorder, I'm behind on laundry, and while I haven't had any major issues, I've three times forgotten about one thing as I spend money on another and had to juggle a little.

The last few days are bringing it to a head - I need to figure it out and deal with it.

Sunday night I decided to put laundry off until last night - just didn't want to be out that late with Sunday bus schedule. Monday I do my full body workout, so I get home later, so I delayed laundry until today. Guess what I didn't do tonight and delayed until ... well Wednesday is full body again, so Thursday? (Thankfully I have enough clothes to get by, but it will be a full heavy bag on Thursday!)

On top of that, I didn't update my bus card properly for April, so I'm using cash while I'm waiting for the electronic update to come through. Monday night I picked up a $20 from the bank so I'd have bus fare this morning. But getting home late meant I didn't break it and the buses don't make change.

All leading to this morning. I'd forgotten to turn my normal alarms on, so i was woken by my phone alarm which is my "finish up and leave" notification. Rush rush and out the door with change for the fare. Bus arrives, I'm plunking in $2.00 worth of change including pennies. Finally get seated, reach for phone ... oops! I'm not going to go the day without it, so off at the next stop where there's a store. I can break my ... oh, I don't have the $20 on me. Fine! I buy a water bottle and get $20 cash back, broken so I can buy a day pass. Back out, bus comes, day pass bought, and off to hurry home for the phone. Grab the phone and the other $20, back out to bus stop. Oh, I didn't mention that it's drizzling, sprinkling, raining throughout all this, but that's okay because I have the umbrella in my gym bag and pulled it out to use. Except, at some point between leaving my house the second time and getting off the light rail, I left it behind ... and it's raining harder.

Really, Jennifer, REALLY!?

So, something has got to change. It's not a funk I'm in. There's no moodiness, no depression, just ... scatter-brained. That's not even quite right because I'm clearly still thinking a lot and not brain-fogged. But even unimportant things like my game time have been scattered and unproductive.

On the plus side, even things I've been procrastinating on, I haven't let go too far. My taxes are now refiled with updated response to hopefully get the e-filing successful. My protein powder is ordered (I'm down to maybe three servings left - definitely like having it as an option). I'm even temporarily caught up on my friend feed and blogs from that, though I'm sure I've missed blogs from teammates.

Hmmmmmm ... I look at the time and suddenly wonder about my sleeping habits. I can think of at least two nights I've been up later than my usual 12:00 - 1:00 am, one of them the night I took an Aleve at around 5:00 am. Methinks it is bed time. I need to figure out a way to track this better. (Is it sad that I've been seriously thinking about one of the more fancy monitors for heart-rate, calories and such because it can track sleep?)

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    I hate when I get in a funk! This week was pretty funky for me (major PMS - which doesn't happen often). Here's to hoping next week is better for the both of us!
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    2166 days ago
    Thanks again for the great blog . i can see you rushing around to get out of the house and then have to get off the bus to rush home for your phone. i would have jsut done with it for day as mine is not as fancy as yours and can 't do all the things yours can . we all have scattered days and you seem to know how to make a experience funny even though i know it was not a fun experience . i always enjoy that you take the time to post on my feed leave a note or message for me they are making this journey easier for me i have i really was helped by the blog ion driving and our weight lose. like the other Spark friends i hope you have a clam and quiet week and get some rest and your alarm clocks go for you emoticon
    remember nothing is IMPOSSIBLE the word it self says I M POSSIBLE Audry Hepburn

    2167 days ago
    You are so refreshingly human about all this emoticon

    I can totally relate about the sleep thing -- and can commiserate how under-sleeping starts to eat away at focus, energy, productivity, etc...8-)

    I can share two things that have helped me: (1) tracking my sleep with an on-body device; and (2) also logging my sleep time daily as a SparkStreak.

    I don't always manage to sleep my full goal time, but I'm definitely keeping that as a central priority (in balance with other things), and I DO notice happy differences....
    2167 days ago
    And I'm one of those lucky spark people that found you via your featured blog! In fact, I mentioned you in my follow-up blog so thank you again!

    I remember a few times getting bags of ears of corn at the farmer's market, making up a batch of corn-on-the-cob and having a bunch for dinner with nothing else. Love corn but then I think about how corn is the secret ingredient that has been snuck into so many products for sweetening. emoticon

    I also wonder if the lack of sleep might be affecting you. Take good care of you because you are so worth it - you've inspired a bunch of people!
    2167 days ago
    Hey, I know that scatter-brained thing. You have ALOT to keep track of, and you are doing very well. Cut yourself a little slack and start writing up what you think you need to remember. And go easier on yourself!!! emoticon
    2167 days ago
    Not enough sleep can definitely make you scattered! I've found that going to bed at the same time every night... counting back 8 hours from when I have to be up...this also means getting up at the same time on Saturdays and Sundays...really helps me. Consistency, consistency, it's all about everything!!!
    2167 days ago
    Maybe it is just plain old spring fever !

    Hope you get settled back down soon

    At least you HAVE still been on track
    food and exercise wise -
    except once for the corn.

    Aw, about the corn. Wouldn't you know it,
    my fave veg has too much carbs and calories!


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    2167 days ago
  • SAMI199
    Of course this goes without saying-lol-but sleep is important.
    I know because I'm not getting enough zzz's myself. I also get those scattered days. (I hear you about the laundry,too)
    It's interesting how very simple things can throw our routines off. Hang in there...

    2167 days ago
    Wow. I don't like corn (except occasionally corn on the cob can be nice), but I never realized it had so many calories either. Hope your scatter-brainedness clears up over the next few days. It sounds like the sleep tracking is a worthy endeavor. It's very hard to focus when we are not sleeping well. Do you take a fish oil supplement? I've heard good things about it for brain health.
    2167 days ago
  • MICHELLE_391
    Yes! I agree with Mommy Nonny - I DO appreciate your comments. As I've said before, you are a very wise woman.

    I wonder if it is the alignment of the moon, starts, and whatever planets, because I have been like this, and I'm reading other blogs where people are describing being oddly scattered.

    Do you ever stop and breathe? I mean really breathe. 5-10 minutes of nothing but deep breathing. I often find that when my brain isn't on par and I'm just in "go" mode, it really helps me to feel centered.

    And congratulations on the featured blog!!

    2167 days ago
    Hope today goes much smoother. emoticon I think we all have those "scattered" days. As funny as they are when we look back on them they are not fun while we are going through them.
    2167 days ago
  • LGAR519
    I was never scatterbrained at work but here lately it has become a problem. I write everything down and then forget my lists!! I think a good nights uninterrupted sleep would help us both. I value your opinion so when you get a chance please read my last blog. I finally got around to writing one. The only other thing I could think might be bothering you would be some sort of unresolved issue that didn't seem important at the time!
    2167 days ago
    Could it have been/be Spring Equinox?
    More light can influence depth (or not) of sleep?
    2167 days ago
  • SASSY5468
    I think that a good night's sleep would really do well for you. Maybe your brain just needs a good rest :) I'm sorry things are so off for you right now. I totally get it after my 2 weeks of crazy business! Hopefully things will get back on track soon.
    2167 days ago
    You have quite a list of things to maneuver around but you are still moving and grooving. MORE POWER TO YOU!!! emoticon
    2167 days ago
    That sure sounds like a long day. I think there are just times when it's harder to focus than others. But yes, I also think sleeping better can help us focus. Despite everything, you seem to be doing great! emoticon
    2167 days ago
    that was really awesome about the featured blog and you got to get your sleep ITS IMPORTANT LADY
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    2167 days ago
    I've been scattered since we got back from vacation. I can't settle down and focus on anything! I think I'm just feeling overwhelmed because I'm so far behind at work, laundry is suffering, and my house looks like a tornado hit it. I've got to drag my husband into helping me tonight.
    2167 days ago
    OH! And congrats on the featured blog status!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2167 days ago
    I think we all have blocks of time when we're scattered. For me, it's when I'm the busiest and most stressed. For you, it might be a different trigger. I would say to pay attention to what you're paying attention to. emoticon

    What is it that's actually on your mind when you realize you've forgotten something? Is there a nagging thought that's crowding out everything else?

    You're doing so great in every other way, so don't let a bit of scattered brainness drag you down!
    2167 days ago
  • -SONIA-
    It seems like you're always Go, Go, Go -- in "real life" and on Spark. While I definitely appreciate all of your comments on my blog (I do, I really do! emoticon emoticon And I'm sure your Spark Friends do as well) -- have you been making sure to leave enough YOU time? Slow-down time? A nice, relaxing routine in the evenings before bed? Sometimes being scattered is just your brain's request for a little time off ;) emoticon emoticon emoticon

    2167 days ago
    I've been feeling like that a lot lately and hoping it pasts too. I also have the same problem with sleep. I have been going to bed way too late and am hoping to cut it back soon because it makes me tired all day. You have a great attitude about everything though. You can do it!
    2167 days ago
    I was feeling a lot like that later part of last week - but not nearly as extreme as you! You did great not letting it get you down, keep up the great attitude! emoticon
    2167 days ago
  • SLENDERSOLDIER1 happens. And you recognise it and can move on! Sounds like you're moving in the right direction with a lot of habits. Good luck!
    2167 days ago
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