Tuesday, April 10, 2012
So i have slacked off for a month! since my birthday on the 16th of March! well i have gained 7lbs in that time out grew the pants that I just down sized too and that's not the worse of it!
I had a DR. Appointment today the first one in almost 2 years due to not having medical! Well i got medical and scheduled an appointment! Well the Dr. gives me a lecture on how over weight I am at 292lbs and all I can say is well you should have seen me in december weighing over 308lbs. Well that did not make her happy! My appointment took over an hour with a pap smear yuck and then some blood tests but the part that is causing my heart to ache is that not am just morbidly obese but what it is doing to my insides! I have fatty cysts growing that have to be surgically removed, my bladder is falling out and will have to be surgically fixed because the weight is pushing it out! And they found another lump in my breast probably another fatty cyst but being over weight makes my chances of cancer even greater she said! she did a diabetes test right then and said she would let me know the results by the end of the week :( this was just some of the problems I have feet problems from too much weight on them and all of this from just letting my body get fatter and fatter! So my month long meltdown is officially over! I am killing myself! I don't know why I just lost my motivation but when you see it all on paper it is very scary to think I could be dead in a year or so if i don't do something about this now! I see the Dr. in three weeks and she let me know she would like to see a smaller number on her scale! And I intend to give it to her!