I decided to join an official challege vis-a-vis this sweet tooth of mine -- aka the nasty monkey on my back that has been with me since childhood.
My addictive personality has led me down some dark roads, and I am very grateful today to be clean, sober, and a non-smoker but let me tell you --- kicking drugs and alcohol was a cakewalk (ha, see what I did there?) compared to kicking sugar.
First of all, it's not all sugar that does it for me. You can keep the licorice and gummy bears and apple brown bettys. My sugar of choice is the chocolate kind. It can be in candy form, or ice cream, or cake, pie, donuts --- if it's chocolate, I want it. If I SEE it, I want it. Case in point, I had that huge Easter dinner and then stopped by a friend's house to pick up some of her old clothes that she's dieted her way out of -- I can use them on MY way down - and she had a big spread on her dining room table including mini-cannoli's with chocolate covered shells. As stuffed as I was, I ate two of them, I HAD to.
It was bigger than me! Bigger than my swollen stuffed stomach. This is what I'm talking about when I say I am a stone cold junkie. Only a junkie would continue to the point of self harm in the name of "MMMMMOOOOORRRRRRREEEEEEEE!"
Yes, I didn't go hog wild and raid the grocery store, but those two cannoli's were not on my plan for the day and despite being a holiday, I need less sugar, not more. It's done, I ate them, I'm moving on. Part of this new challenge is to write this stuff down and notice it.
I am Eating Clean (or trying to!) and refined sugar is not part of that plan. Today is day 2 of no sugar and I know the cravings will go away in a few days (because I've done this before y'all) and it takes about 4 days for me to start feeling better after getting the sugar out of my system. For today, I am having random cravings -- cravings on sight, and I'm feeling draggy despite doing 50 minutes of exercise yesterday.
Yes, I did a sad attempt at Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred, Level 1 yesterday, and felt like 20 minutes wasn't enough, so I did a 25 minute Express workout from The Firm (Cardio Overdrive). I have the Couch to 5K training to do when I get home today.
It was pointed out to me on the C25K Team board that I wasn't giving myself enough walking time between runs - I looked it up and saw that I had copied it down incorrectly from the website. Silly me! I was trying to be slick at work and not get caught printing personal business - I went for it today and printed the CORRECT training program and threw my quickly handwritten program AWAY.
I want to be a Frolicking Sugar Free Summer Goddess so I can buy cute sundresses and get this reaction all summer: