Monday, April 09, 2012
Today I woke up filled with excitement and joy. I cannot remember a time when I have ever felt this way on a Monday morning.
I walked the puppy to daycare and back, stopped at the market to get some veggies and then it was home, to work on positioning myself to find a job.
And then all of my plans were derailed.
I had planned to track my breakfast and exercise and then call the career transition center, my membership to which is being paid by my former employer. Then I was going to either go to this transition center, or apply to some jobs, taking breaks to do the laundry.
Here's what happened instead:
1. One of my very best friends called to see how I was doing. Very sweet of her, but I didn't want to think of any negativity. I've decided to live in the here, now, and positive. She was, as always, concerned and full of advice. Some of this advice I will probably use. This conversation took nearly an hour, and by the time it was over, I'd broken down and shared some angsty stuff with her. Crap. But still, I bounced back and didn't let the negativity bring me down.
2. My cell battery was about dead by then and I plugged in the phone to charge it up. I began the laundry. Then I looked at my "to do" list for the week and decided to clean the bathroom.
3. Finally the phone was charged up enough to call the career center. Left a message there.
4. Wrote some emails back and forth to a friend in Florida who is also looking for jobs. She is a self-employed contractor who is following her dreams and doing pretty well at it. I admire her. I listen to every little thing she says with a megaphone to my ear.
5. Ate lunch, Facebooked.
6. Lady from career center calls and we chat. Disappointingly, I can't start working with them until I take their orientation session. The next session is next Wednesday. How annoying! I'm ready to work with them RIGHT NOW. Why don't things run on MY schedule?!
7. Vacuumed the condo including windowsills, ceilings, and the tops of the doors, and then cleaned the microwave.
8. Did more laundry, dusted the living room
9. Exhausted, I took a nap.
10. Woke up from nap at 4:00. Checked my emails to find that the professional organization I belong to is having a networking function with a speaker on the 26th. Again, not right now today, but I signed up for it.
11. My genius friend in FL sends me a link to a religious-based organization that does career counseling. I sign up for the "Networking and Elevator Speech" session next week.
12. Take the mile walk to go pick my dog up from daycare and then walk him home.
Now it is 9:30. I've eaten, tracked, and I'm about to do some reading.
I clearly didn't have the calmness today to focus on what it is I really needed to do: find open positions and send out resumes. I feel like I should feel guilty because I didn't do very much job-related activity, but somehow I'm feeling guilty that I DON'T feel guilty instead.
But when I look back at how Mondays used to be, and the crap that would be slung at me, and the crap I would ingest into my body and mind, and how I would be too tired to exercise, let alone walk 4 miles with the dog, I can't help but think that today was a pretty successful day after all.