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Limitations and Aspirations

Monday, April 09, 2012

Iím starting to get sick of the limitations I have because of my weight. There is a pretty exhaustive list but basically Iím over it...the whole thing! I feel this runner-adventurist-biker-risk taker-swimmer-hiker-yoga obsessed person in me thatís waiting to get out. One of my biggest limitations, which Iíve mentioned before, is travelingÖand more specifically seating and seat belts.

Even driving in cars sometimes is hard because the belt wonít reach and the stupid car keeps beeping for me to put it on. Also, whenever I get asked anywhere my first reaction is ďwhere will I sit?Ē I HATE worrying about this. I mentioned I have a trip coming up for work to North Carolina. Itís next month and I asked my boss if I could not attend and he told me that I indeed had to. Iím already an emotional nutcase about it. I get sick to my stomach thinking about having to sit uncomfortably for a number or hours and embarrass myself in front of staff and other travelers. Basically my worst nightmare in an airplane shaped form.

The worst part of all this is that I love to travel. In fact, I would really love a job in international business. I really want to go to all over the world but the traveling piece always makes me pause. Here are my top 3 locations I will visit:



Trinadad and Tobago

So, I WILL travel and explore and become that person I want to be. Iím struggling everyday with it and Iím probably not doing my best all the time but itís a hard thing for me. Iím going to keep working at it until Iím in Moscow or Trinidad and Iím being the adventurist I always wanted to be.

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CARRIEMT 4/11/2012 12:29PM

    Baby steps until your outside matches your inside- keep pushing. You're absolutely worth all of your dreams.

Take the bull by the horns and love that healthy girl within. That might mean letting go of all of your guilt, preset ideas, jealously, frustration and embrace the person who does all of those things.

No one becomes any of those things over night, it starts with baby steps and requires consistency. Today is the day you take your first step!

Wish I could help with your up coming trip, but will hope that you're comfortable and less self-conscious than you're anticipating. If you're flying out of Helena, you won't get any hands-on lovin' at the TSA since they put in those scanners. I kind of like an early morning feel-up, but that might just be me :)

Hugs- C

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KALIGIRL 4/10/2012 9:28AM

    You indeed WILL!
Here's to the future "runner-adventurist-biker-risk taker-swimmer-hiker-yoga obsessed person you will become.

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    I teared up reading this. I know exactly how you feel. I know there is nothing I can say or do to relieve this stress for you just know I empathize and it does indeed suck.

I have no doubt you will get to the places on your list and more!

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