I am now home from a 12 day vacation.
10 days in an all-inclusive dream resort in Dominican Republic and one day in Toronto,Canada.
I learned that traveling by plane is tiring.
I learned that if I don't prepare myself mentally for all the food that is readily available, I will not do well.
I learned that food eaten in big quantities,even good for you foods, will make me feel awful.
When food is available in enorgmous amounts, I want to eat it all! OK,not all,but I don't want to stop eating-EVER!
I event went to eat by myself when my husband was in the pool,because the food was calling me (not from hunger).
When eating lots of sugary deserts,my body/brain is never satisfied and it triggers cravings for more sugar.
I really went all out this week and never even tried to eat only when hungry.
A few days before coming home,my husband commented on how he felt better before going on vacation because he had been watching what he ate and had lost a little weight.
He gained back a little,but I gained back like 8 lbs.-I say like because I weighed myself but I am trying to block it out-I did not change my ticker yet-I'm too embarrassed.
I agreed with him ,but my mind was already in the obsession of thinking that I will diet when I get back and thinking that I need to eat as much as I can because all this good food is not going to be there any more.
I had done better last year with the food (same resort) when I was not trying to lose weight yet.
The first few days we were there, we went for a long walk on the beach,and I even checked out their gym.
But after a few days of not eating well,I did not even want to exercise anymore.
I was feeling really tired and lethargic.
I kept watching people go to the gym or walking or jogging,and I kept thinking it could be me, but I did not do it. Except walking-I did a bit of that.
I am really struggling today to not binge and I know it's from being tired and being back to reality.
We had a snow storm yesterday- from + 30 deg and warm sun to + 1 deg with snow! Blah!
It's funny,all the work I had left before going on vacation is still here waiting for me.
I also did not drink as much water as I used to and had lots of pepsi and diet-pepsi.
Just that is going to be hard to give up again.
Why do I do this to myself?
Why don't I learn that when I eat in moderation,I have energy and feel so much better.
I have to face the fact that If I want to be healthy,I have to make good food choices EVERYDAY!
I cannot take a vacation from eating well and expect to feel good.
I learned that when I make bad choices, I don't feel so good.
But,today is a new day, and I have the ability to make better choices....even if I come back to leftover food from Easter Supper that is not so healthy.
I am not a garbage can and it's not my fault if it goes to waste.
Weather I eat the food or not is not going to stop people who don't have any to starve.
On the plus side.
I had a great vacation with my husband.
It's nice to be just us two that we can get to have fun together again without all the demands of home and work.
It was nice to see my husband relax and just be himself.
The weather was fabulous and it's nice to see how other people live.
I don't know if they have food issues that we have here,but they have other issues that I would not want.
And hey! I have a tan!
Have a nice day!