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Disappointed In Myself...But Moving Forward


Monday, April 09, 2012

I'd imagine there will be SO many of these blogs on SparkPeople today. I had one HORRIBLE day yesterday, food-wise. OK, the entire weekend wasn't great.

Actually, Saturday was excellent until I bought those sugar cookie decorating kits for the kids to do on Sunday and my hubby and kids went out and left me all alone in the house. I thought, "Just one...nobody will notice." Well, one turned into 3. Three cookies. And I had also snuck two bite-sized pieces of chocolate at an Easter egg hunt earlier that day. Still...it wasn't HORRIBLE. Just a small blip in my overall magnificent success over the previous week.

Then, Easter. I told myself I'd follow South Beach and wouldn't cave in. But, then those cookies came out again...and I had one. Then, I thought I'd nibble a couple jelly beans and maybe just have a bun with a hot dog...it's just one bun! Managed to have my burger with no bun and did eat a TON of veggies, so those were about my only redeeming choices yesterday. Honestly...I lost track of how many cookies I had yesterday. THAT is bad.

Scale read 5 lbs heavier this morning. I'm sure that's not all "real" weight gain...I had a LOT of grilled food this weekend so I'm sure a lot of it is water gain and salt. But, it's very discouraging because I did SO WELL last week. It's like I sabotaged myself.

There is a bright side...I feel that I've learned a very important lesson. I can't be trusted to "just have a little" without completely falling off the wagon. At the same time, I understand that never having "just a little" will be almost impossible if this is truly a lifestyle change. So, I need to figure out a way to be able to have my bites of cake here and there and eat them too...maybe have my husband help me and only have my "cheats" when he is around to see and help monitor. It's the secret eating that gets way out of hand...and makes me feel the worst later on.

That being said, it's a new day. And today I choose correctly. Even if I did gain 5 lbs for real, which I'm sure I didn't, I wouldn't want to give up now. Why go completely backward? That would be ridiculous. Besides, I can't forget how wonderful it felt to be healthy. I'm not giving up. I'm on this road for as long as it takes.
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AWOOD1973 4/11/2012 10:52PM

    Way to hold yourself accountable and move on! New day, new healthier choices!! You're doing great!!! :)

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CHOCOHOLIC2276 4/10/2012 7:30AM

    Great job on eating grilled foods and veggies:) emoticon

As for the cheats, I know what works for me is having single serve cheats. For example I can't buy a pint of ice cream because I will eat it- but I buy the single serve ice cream like the skinny cow ice cream cup and that satisfies my sweet tooth and once it's gone it's gone.

emoticon I know you will find what works for you:)

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GETTINGFIT4HIM 4/10/2012 2:14AM

  Remember, a setback is a setup for a comeback. emoticon

Lysa herself says it can take some time to get to the point of strength in moderation when it comes to sweets and trigger foods. It's progress, not perfection. emoticon

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BITTYGIRL51 4/9/2012 8:57PM

    Don 't beat yourself up too badly, but recognize your unhealthy habits and change them. I would encourage you to dig into the "word" and your Made to Crave book for more insights. Get involved on the message boards. I think you will find many others struggling with the same issues and what they did to overcome them. I'm cheering for you.

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TURKEYPEPPERONI 4/9/2012 8:36PM

   

It's great that this little slip taught you something. Hang in there!!

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WERNERETTE 4/9/2012 12:52PM

    I know just what you're going through! I am learning the same things, that just one bite or taste won't hurt.... but it does! It sends me over the edge and I end up binging on all the wrong foods.

I need to learn to incorporate those foods into my eating in a healthier way, so that they don't end up setting me into a binge. I haven't quite figured out how yet, but if you do, let me know!

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YULLABELLE 4/9/2012 12:17PM

    I've had a few days like your weekend. I just pick myself up and keep going. We will all have small set backs, if we didn't we wouldn't be human. we just log our feeling at the time of the slip up and try to learn from the slip up. One weekend will not undue your weeks of wonderful work. Keep moving towards your goals you are worth a healthier you.

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BARNABUSA1 4/9/2012 12:16PM

    I feel your pain. I too cannot have it around. I will give in and justify my actions.

Way to go, though, for picking yourself up and dusting yourself off. We have to indulge at times to remind us of why we are doing this to begin with. You said it! "Why go completely backward? That would be ridiculous." I love that thought. Thanks emoticon

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