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full moon frustration

Saturday, April 07, 2012

Maybe it's in the air, or the stars, or that wickedly full moon, but yesterday sucked. I had a crappy run yesterday and almost felt like stopping mid course and crying because of it. I was trying my w2d2 c25k run. I had my new shoes and the last couple of runs had gone pretty well. I couldn't flippin breath!! I could barely make 30 seconds on before I looked like a fish out of water!! (gonna check and see if I have exercise induced asthma or reactive airway)

It was so frustrating! And I felt like such a failure!! After 12 weeks at the gym doing cardio and strength training and I still can't run for 30 seconds???? WTH??? It was like I had just gotten off the couch after not doing a thing for a year! I felt like I had made NO progress whatsoever and for a brief couple of minutes I just couldn't take it!

My program is a modification of c25k. I actually run the 5k part in the intervals suggested. When I got to the end I had actually cut a minute off my time. 43:45 Still didn't make me feel any better though. I kept thinking, I can't run this race gasping like a beached perch!!!

I have 9 wks until the 5k I signed up for. I KNOW if I keep training I will improve some by then. But probably not as much as I had hoped. Still instead of focusing on how far I have to go, I MUST look at how far I've come. Reality vs. expectation.

And I hate Easter weekend because I get roped into stuff I really really don't like to do... but I'm the one who didn't say 'no' to these things ( chaperoning a lock in and working the pancake breakfast after sunrise service which means being in the kitchen from 5:30 a.m. until noon and I do not like to cook really.)

rant over. It actually felt pretty good to get those things out and in front of me. I can certainly see where I can change things to help with these feelings. (like saying no I can not help, but I'll help you find someone who can)

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    Check with the doctor if you feel you might have asthma, dont want to hurt yourself...another thing you might look into is a Heart Rate Monitor, I have found that it really helps me. I was working on the C25K also but doing it in my one mode. I have been using the treadmill at the gym. Like you I had a hard time running for 30 seconds. It has slowly increased to the point where I can run now for 2 mins, still low but I am pacing myself. There have been a couple of times where I had a good run and was able to run for 3 and 5 mins.

    Regarding the HRM, I use mine alot. I run until my heart rate is up to 162 then walk, and when my heart rate gets to 130 I start to run again. I have been woundering myself if I stop at 162 because I get scared so the times I ran for 3 and 5 mins was because I pushed myself to see how long my heart rate would stay at 162.. I would definatly stop when my HR got to 170.
    I find the HRM to be an excellent tool, but of course you really should check with your doctor regarding the asthma.

    2176 days ago
    Howl at the moon.
    2177 days ago
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