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full moon frustration

Saturday, April 07, 2012

Maybe it's in the air, or the stars, or that wickedly full moon, but yesterday sucked. I had a crappy run yesterday and almost felt like stopping mid course and crying because of it. I was trying my w2d2 c25k run. I had my new shoes and the last couple of runs had gone pretty well. I couldn't flippin breath!! I could barely make 30 seconds on before I looked like a fish out of water!! (gonna check and see if I have exercise induced asthma or reactive airway)

It was so frustrating! And I felt like such a failure!! After 12 weeks at the gym doing cardio and strength training and I still can't run for 30 seconds???? WTH??? It was like I had just gotten off the couch after not doing a thing for a year! I felt like I had made NO progress whatsoever and for a brief couple of minutes I just couldn't take it!

My program is a modification of c25k. I actually run the 5k part in the intervals suggested. When I got to the end I had actually cut a minute off my time. 43:45 Still didn't make me feel any better though. I kept thinking, I can't run this race gasping like a beached perch!!!

I have 9 wks until the 5k I signed up for. I KNOW if I keep training I will improve some by then. But probably not as much as I had hoped. Still instead of focusing on how far I have to go, I MUST look at how far I've come. Reality vs. expectation.

And I hate Easter weekend because I get roped into stuff I really really don't like to do... but I'm the one who didn't say 'no' to these things ( chaperoning a lock in and working the pancake breakfast after sunrise service which means being in the kitchen from 5:30 a.m. until noon and I do not like to cook really.)

rant over. It actually felt pretty good to get those things out and in front of me. I can certainly see where I can change things to help with these feelings. (like saying no I can not help, but I'll help you find someone who can)


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SUEKKY 4/8/2012 2:25AM

    Check with the doctor if you feel you might have asthma, dont want to hurt yourself...another thing you might look into is a Heart Rate Monitor, I have found that it really helps me. I was working on the C25K also but doing it in my one mode. I have been using the treadmill at the gym. Like you I had a hard time running for 30 seconds. It has slowly increased to the point where I can run now for 2 mins, still low but I am pacing myself. There have been a couple of times where I had a good run and was able to run for 3 and 5 mins.

Regarding the HRM, I use mine alot. I run until my heart rate is up to 162 then walk, and when my heart rate gets to 130 I start to run again. I have been woundering myself if I stop at 162 because I get scared so the times I ran for 3 and 5 mins was because I pushed myself to see how long my heart rate would stay at 162.. I would definatly stop when my HR got to 170.
I find the HRM to be an excellent tool, but of course you really should check with your doctor regarding the asthma.


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UMBILICAL 4/7/2012 10:50AM

  Howl at the moon.

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