Friday, April 06, 2012
So many good, no GREAT things to be thankful for, not just this week but every week.
I am thankful that my family will be here on Sunday to celebrate Easter with us.
I am thankful that I feel like celebrating this year, more so than previous years. I feel like I have missed out on so much. My kids growing, my grandkids growing - all because I was too depressed, too ashamed, too disgusted with my own self to get involved in their lives and activities.
I am thankful that I took the initiative myself, to figure out what I needed to do to save myself. I have gone to the doctor every year, begging for help. And maybe they gave me the information that I needed but I wasn't listening. I was probably hoping for a miracle pill and didn't hear anything else when that wasn't available, I really can't say. All I know is that I am thankful that losing weight now, hopefully I will ward off any diseases that tend to run in my family like heart and diabetes, and cancer.
I am thankful that I feel more active. I just spent an hour outside planting around our "beach" at the pond. I just feel like doing more things myself around our home. I have planted a garden, I have been doing things that have been put off far too long.
I am thankful that one day I turned the TV from the Food Network and saw Dr. Oz. That set my wheels in motion. I then got the wheels in motion for my sister, who then led me to Sparkpeople. It took me a couple of months to come back around to SP. I thought I was doing fine on my own. It wasn't until I started tracking, that things began to really happen. I am so thankful, I have no idea what made me come back to SP to snoop around after 2 months, but I am so thankful that I did.
I am so thankful that I began my journey of food and learning and exploring and trying to figure out what we needed for our bodies. I am thankful this led me to discover primal/paleo, Primeo seems to be working great for me. It has shown me that really I just needed to get back to my roots, the way I was raised and the way I started raising my young family before LIfe got in the way.
I am thankful for all the friends and support that I have here at SP. It is so nice to have your own little cheering section, people that understand and support you, instead of trying to sabotage your efforts. I don't think real life people mean to necessarily, but sometimes I think subconsciously they feel like if they cant lose weight, then you shouldn't either, so Let's go get some cake & ice cream!
I am thankful for my children, my greatest accomplishment. They are wonderful human beings, I love them all and am so very proud of them. Even in my darkest times, which they may or may not be aware, they were always my shining lights of hope. I am still amazed when I look at them. The people they have turned into. Caring, loving individuals and I am so thankful that NONE of them have any weight issues. And I am thankful that I have learned things to share with them so that they never do. I am thankful every day that God gave these children to me though I never felt worthy. I am just so thankful that I did not screw it up. I am glad that I was able to share these gifts with the world in a positive way but I realize that I had so much help along the way. It really does take a village.
And last but not least, I am so very thankful for my husband. It is not our first rodeo but we have weathered the storms and he has stood by my side for almost 20 years. Sometimes he stands behind me, pushing me. Sometimes he stands in front of me to help pull me along. But I know that regardless, he is always there. I can't imagine my life or where I would be without him.
I just have so much to be thankful for. And I am just so thankful that I am getting my weight under control, and thankful for all the information and tools and resources available to help me accomplish my goals, so that I can fully enjoy all the blessings in my life.