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always thinking ...


Thursday, April 05, 2012

i guess i've said this before, but i'll say it again ... i've never done this before .... i've never "dieted" ... i've never made a concerted effort to lose weight ... i've lost five or so pounds here or there with a bit of concerted effort and extra exercise ... but i've never had a plan .... i've never tried hard ... i've never said 40 pounds ... and now i've lost 8 .....

so here's the thing .. i'm ALWAYS thinking about it ... food .. what to eat .. when to eat it ... water ... drink more ... fruit ... have some more .... exercise ... is this enough ... should i go longer ... faster .... ALWAYS thinking about it ... is this how i'm going to be for 40 pounds? seems crazy .. part of me wonders if i can keep thinking about it for 40 pounds ... or for forever .... part of me wonders if it is healthy to be always thinking about it ... so, i want to be able to think this way (focused) forever ... and i also don't think i should (be this focused) forever ... odd disequilibrium ....

so .. here's my obsessive thinking while i was running on the treadmill in my train for a 5k program ...

monday, went to my trianer, exercised with her HARD, daughter home alone sick, dind't go to school, still asleep when i left, and i wanted to start my running program ... i'd just signed up the night before ... so ... a minute walk ... i chose 3mph ... then three minute jog/run ... i chose 5 mph .... seemed reasonable ... was proud of myself for figuring out intervals on the treadmill ... and i did two sets ... out of eight ... and was winded ... and sore ... and started worrying about my daughter ... ugh ... did two more intervals and stopped ... telling myself it was because my daughter was going to wake up and worrying that it was really because i couldn't do the run ... it was too hard and what i perceived as too slow a pace ... ugh ... i got nice exercise minutes and calories burned and was completely dissatisfiied with it ...

tuesday, back to the gym, right to the treadmill ... knew how to do the intervals .. considered setting the run slower .. but set the walk at 3mph and the jog at 5mph .... and then started ... and it was hard ... and i had to pep talk myself for every three minute dash ... ack .. oh my gosh i have to do this seven more times ... you can ... how am i not even half way ... it's ok ... why can't i stop now ... don't ... just run ... and then i finished it ... in 32 minutes i went 2.4 miles ... that's not far off a 3.1mile/5k .. ...hey! i can do it ...

thursday, having thought about the run for two days with tight calves and quads and glutes, i wondered if i could do it ... but decided ahead that i would try to up my speed ... just a bit .. and lower it if i had too ... so .. 3.0 for the slow and 5.2 for the not as slow ... a whole point 2 higher took all of this self talk and pep talk and ta da! i did it ... 2.5 miles in 32 minutes ....

i am feeling very optimistic ... but i am thinking about it ALL the time .... i don't even want to wait a day before i do my next run ... i'm going to do it at 5.4 ... and maybe next week i'll raise my slow number .... not sure yet ... but i have a lot of time to think about it ....

so am i going to be thinking about spark people things all the time forever?
stay tuned ....
cause i sure don't know the answer yet ....
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BLUE42DOWN 4/6/2012 2:50AM

    No, you won't always have to be thinking about, almost obsessing about, all the little changes. Right now they're new. You're having to resist your normal habits and inclinations. As you do them consistently and make them into your new habits, they will become more routine for you.

Water, for example, if you've never gotten more than a few glasses can be a real chore to keep track of and do. After a few weeks of drinking 8 glasses regularly, it can become second nature to have that water there, to drink from it often.

Or with the treadmill, one day you'll finish your routine, look at what you just did and boggle at how you felt that first week trying to do so much less. (Of course, if you're like me and routinely push yourself on it, you may find you'll always be having to pep talk your way toward the end ... but that and getting it done is a big part of the fun!)

Oh, to your mention of tight glutes - after you do your walking/jogging, are you doing a stretching routine? I find it makes a massive difference to stretch quads, hamstrings, and calves well after any cardio session.

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MYBULLDOGS 4/5/2012 10:03PM

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walk at least 10,00 steps a day. my sister lost 93 pounds just walking.

find foods that work with YOUR body chemistry.

i make this mixture for breakfast , lunch and dinner. i have lost 39 pounds .

i cook 4 large portabella mushrooms sliced, balsamic vinegar, olive oil, 4 large onions sliced, 2 large green peppers, 3 cans green beans, 1 can rutabaga and 5 sliced chicken sausages. find foods that work with your chemistry. i created this meal on my own. i can't seem to loose weight if i eat any grain products. so one day i experimented.

it makes enough for at least 4 days, three meals a day. total cost is 12 dollars. i buy the mushrooms and chicken at sams club. sounds crazy but it taste good and most importantly it's working. i'm not hungry . if i feel the urge to cheat i go get a fork full of my mixture. i chew very slowly as to enjoy my meal.

i have added a small banana and grapes for my snacks and to be a fix for my sweet tooth.

you can add other foods into your menu. just know what works with your body chemistry.

I have gone from 198 to 159 pounds. i can now fit into a size 12 comfortably. i feel so much better. think of carrying a 2 year old around your waist every minute of every day. no i am not done. on the obese chart i have gone from being obese to just plain fat. my goal is to drop another 12 pounds. then i will be happy, healthy and never allow myself to get in this condition again.

one might say eating the same food every day would get boring. not true. when you look in the mirror and can see the difference it's worth

i went to the doctor. for the first time in a long time i was not ashamed to get on the scale. i did not have to get beet red because doctor said i was over weight. it felt great.

walk at least 10,000 steps a day. my sister lost 93 pounds walking 15,000 steps a day.

find foods that work with YOUR body chemistry.

i make this mixture for breakfast , lunch and dinner. i have lost 39 pounds .

i cook 4 large portabella mushrooms sliced, balsamic vinegar, olive oil, 4 large onions sliced, 2 large green peppers, 3 cans green beans, 1 can rutabaga and 5 sliced chicken sausages. find foods that work with your chemistry. i created this meal on my own. i can't seem to loose weight if i eat any grain products. so one day i experimented.

it makes enough for at least 4 days, three meals a day. total cost is 12 dollars. i buy the mushrooms and chicken at sams club. sounds crazy but it taste good and most importantly it's working. i'm not hungry . if i feel the urge to cheat i go get a fork full of my mixture. i chew very slowly as to enjoy my meal.

i have added a small banana and grapes for my snacks and to be a fix for my sweet tooth.

you can add other foods into your menu. just know what works with your body chemistry.

I have gone from 198 to 159 pounds. i can now fit into a size 12 comfortably. i feel so much better. think of carrying a 2 year old around your waist every minute of every day. no i am not done. on the obese chart i have gone from being obese to just plain fat. my goal is to drop another 12 pounds. then i will be happy, healthy and never allow myself to get in this condition again.

one might say eating the same food every day would get boring. not true. when you look in the mirror and can see the difference it's worth

i went to the doctor. for the first time in a long time i was not ashamed to get on the scale. i did not have to get beet red because doctor said i was over weight. it felt great

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2BEABETTERME 4/5/2012 9:57PM

    Wow! You went fast! I was more concerned with getting it done. My walk/run intervals were 2.7 and less than four at first and then I bumped it up. I'm on week four and my 35 minute runs are at 4.3 mph. I'd rather do all of it and not adjust the speed all over. I have to say my last two days of the walk/runs I upped the speed on the last four or five sets of runs and my walks had been at 3 for weeks.

You are rocking it! It is a five week program and you are way ahead of my speeds. Graeat job!

I find the choices about food and exercise come easier, without as much debate or scrutinizing, the longer I am at it. It still dominates a lot of my thought but not as disruptively as in the beginning.
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