falling off the wagon :-\
Thursday, April 05, 2012
Be warned, this one's kind of a downer.
I like to use my blog to record A-ha moments and lessons that I am learning. I wish I could say that all of my posts were positive and inspirational. But sometimes the best that can be said about them is that they're honest.
In the past few days, I've seen myself losing motivation and falling off the wagon. I could chock it up to many things, but ultimately, it is not "why" you did it, but "what" you did that matters. Even a good excuse is still an excuse. What you get out of it depends on what you put into it.
I also started to see evidence of self-doubt. I had made a nice, motivational list of rewards for reaching certain small goal weights. Well I reached the first one, but I have not cashed in on the reward yet. It's as though I don't trust myself to maintain the loss. Hopefully with continued effort and progress, I will trust myself more and this hesitation will start to go away.
Time to pick myself up, dust myself off, and.... I don't like to see it as "starting all over again", so I'll say "continue where I left off". :)