I owned it!
Thursday, April 05, 2012
I've been really looking forward to an anniversary breakfast that work was holding at a big function hall. there was brunch!!! I told myself that I was going to let myself have whatever I wanted, since I've been really "good", this is a special occasion, and i never get a chance to go to a breakfast buffet anymore! I'm also a "recovering vegetarian" (haha) and was really looking forward to some bacon, since i still really don't eat meat that much.
so I got there, and actually had a pretty reasonable breakfast. 2 pieces of bacon, 3 pieces of sausage (holy sat fat!) but also fruit and some plain scrambled eggs. I wanted a danish but said no- not worth it. also wanted a bagel but again, not special enough to justify. i also avoided juice, which i could drink gallons of.
i felt very heavy and a bit ill driving back to work, but i enjoyed myself and it was worth it. Had a very small lunch since I was still sort of full.
and then it started to hit me... this incredible craving for fast food for dinner. husband's not home... don't feel like cooking... have nothing planned... I want Mcdonald's! and what the heck... i already had a big breakfast! i just won't track anything and will call the day a total wash!!
so i stopped on the way home and got a big mac and fries.
then i REALLY felt ill.
i went out with the dog for a bit to get in some exercise, and then decided while I was out that i HAD to track today. just own it. whatever the numbers are. better to know.
I only went over by 100 calories!!! i went over by more than that in fat, but I'm trying not to dwell. I'm very proud of myself that I just owned it. What's done is done, i feel like crap, and won't be doing it again any time soon.