Disappointed with myself
Thursday, April 05, 2012
Yes, I'm not happy with myself. I'm waaaaayyy up on the scale.
It read 206 this morning.
It was at 198 4 days ago. (ok.. that wasn't good either... but, still under 200).
Not sure how that happened! I've not had enough water, nor enough fruits & veggies. Hard to do when in a hotel for a few days.
I also saw pictures of myself from last week. I'm back to that 'fat' look that I don't like for myself. Yes, I realize that Fat is a bad word... but, right now, I don't like how I look. I know that I can look like I'm just rounder than I'd like to be, but not fat. I'm no longer there.
I need to change this. I know what to do. Back to tracking every bite in my mouth. Back to measuring everything. But, honestly, while I wasn't eating 5+ servings of freggies, I was at 3 to 4. I've only had 3 days of not enough water.. I still prefer it to everything else. (Yes, I drink more than 8 cups... but for me, 'enough' water is over 12 cups).
I've cut back on my exercise,but I'm still getting at least 45 minutes every other day. I need to get back to everyday. I need to do more ST.
SO... plan for today: sit down, and plan out the next week. And then sketch in the whole month. I'll also pull together some challenging but reachable goals for myself. (one will be blogging more often. it helps!)
SIgh. Why do I do this to myself!
Ok.. off to the elliptical upstairs!