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Disappointed with myself

Thursday, April 05, 2012

Yes, I'm not happy with myself. I'm waaaaayyy up on the scale.

It read 206 this morning.

It was at 198 4 days ago. (ok.. that wasn't good either... but, still under 200).

Not sure how that happened! I've not had enough water, nor enough fruits & veggies. Hard to do when in a hotel for a few days.

I also saw pictures of myself from last week. I'm back to that 'fat' look that I don't like for myself. Yes, I realize that Fat is a bad word... but, right now, I don't like how I look. I know that I can look like I'm just rounder than I'd like to be, but not fat. I'm no longer there.

I need to change this. I know what to do. Back to tracking every bite in my mouth. Back to measuring everything. But, honestly, while I wasn't eating 5+ servings of freggies, I was at 3 to 4. I've only had 3 days of not enough water.. I still prefer it to everything else. (Yes, I drink more than 8 cups... but for me, 'enough' water is over 12 cups).

I've cut back on my exercise,but I'm still getting at least 45 minutes every other day. I need to get back to everyday. I need to do more ST.

SO... plan for today: sit down, and plan out the next week. And then sketch in the whole month. I'll also pull together some challenging but reachable goals for myself. (one will be blogging more often. it helps!)

SIgh. Why do I do this to myself!

Ok.. off to the elliptical upstairs!
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    Great planning to set things up. Don't ever be disappointed with yourself Lala. emoticon
    2145 days ago
    Glad to hear you will be blogging more... emoticon
    2147 days ago
    Boy - do I recognize that song you are singing. I bet a million other people do too. But what happens next belongs solely to you - and I bet you can make today different.

    Love the 'rounder' description.
    2147 days ago
  • JLITT62
    I keep playing with those same few lbs . . . it's so frustrating! But we can do it.
    2147 days ago
    These are hard lessons to learn. I know you can do it if you stay committed.
    2147 days ago
    I think we all do it to ourselves from time to time! Sitting down and working out goals for yourself is great.

    I need to do the same. I've been so off track lately it isn't funny.

    We can do this! I think blogging does help. It gets your thoughts out there and also gets you lots of needed support! Hang in there. emoticon
    2148 days ago
    Don't beat yourself up, down some water and exercise. Those few pounds will be gone in a few days. As women we retain water like it's our best friend! Keep your chin up, you look great!
    2148 days ago
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