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Wednesday, April 04, 2012

I don't know how to help myself. No matter how many times I tell myself I'm going to change my behavior, I slip into the same thoughts that repeatedly lead to bingeing. My self-loathing reaches epic heights on a daily basis. I've contemplated severe measures to MAKE myself stop.

I feel so completely, totally removed. When I was losing weight, I had SP. When I hit goal weight, I really lost that support. Now I'm in isolation as I regain. My life is falling apart and at the rate I'm going, I'm going to be 200 pounds by June.
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  • DEEO12
    WTG in losing the weight. Many of my SP friends have lost their weight but are still here on SP. Stay with us here. Maintaining a weight loss is part of your weight loss journey. emoticon
    2092 days ago
    Like Dottie said, please come back to the team! I'm back now, too, and though binging isn't my downfall, I have plenty to overcome (like big portions, desserts, etc.). I've gained back almost all the weight I lost with SP 2 years ago, so I know what it is to be mad at yourself! So, you see, YOU ARE NOT ALONE! We are all only human! PLEASE come back and try a mini-challenge with me. We need you!
    Praying we'll see you soon!
    2135 days ago
    I hope you're ok. I really hate to hear this is going on with you. I agree that counseling would really help in this situation. I hope that's an option. I think support is really what you need right now! Please take care!
    2145 days ago
    check your sparkmail Star
    2147 days ago
  • KANOE10
    Can you try to get some help with a therapist or a good friend? If you can figure out what is stressing you, then you can start taking steps to stop your bingeing. Something is making you unhappy.
    I know what you mean..when you are losing you receive lots of support..Then things change when you reach your goal weight and maintain.
    Take care, Spark Friend..try to help yourself. Keep posting and trying to figure out your emotions., emoticon
    2147 days ago
    Hey there girl stop by the team page we are still there for ya. Tammie has been back and started a mini challenge. It's time to start taking baby steps back. We'll be looking and praying for ya!
    2147 days ago
    Check your inbox
    2147 days ago
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