Wednesday, April 04, 2012
Wow! If you asked me last year at this time, I never in my life would have thought I would be where I am today, especially still using this website! I have never in my life been able to stick to anything for this long before! And no I was not always on here, in fact there were about 4 or 5 months that I only logged on once or twice a month just to see what everyone was up to. Then came to realize how much better I was doing when I was on here every day! So let's start at the beginning...I was thinking about hiring a personal trainer but that was far too expensive so I was looking for free online weightloss support groups...and the first thing that popped up was SP! I thought it was a scam and took about an hour just looking around on here only to realize it was real, an actual FREE website with other people just like me! I HAD to try it! And I think that was the best personal decision I have ever made! I joined 4-4-11 weighing in @ 298 lbs.
Since that first day, I have learned some more about eating healthy, and what I do and how it affects my body. I knew most of that already though, the knowledge was there, just no effort to put it into practice. The valuable lessons I have learned from SP are to not feel alone in this, I have never had so much support in all my overweight years! SP showed me that there are so many others out there struggling with the same issues! I wasn't the only fat girl going to be walking down the street with people staring, or the only fat girl to try to workout at the gym! But if I wanted to lose weight I needed to get over my insecurities and realize that who cares what people think when they drive by (yelling out the window at me)! Who cares who stares as they go by, yes I might be the fat girl walking down the street, I might be the fat girl on the track that can't run for more than 1 minute at a time (with fat rolls jiggling) but dangit, atleast I'm out there doing something about it!!!!!! I have gained so much more confidence from being here and having such wonderful supportive friends! But the one thing I have learned that I treasure the most is that no matter what I do, no matter how bad I think I messed up, no matter how lazy of a day, week, or month I had, I always ALWAYS always need to keep going, keep trying, get back up and move forward!!!! That is the greatest gift I have gotten from SP! It has taught me that we all have bad times, we all have struggles, but we can't get depressed and just eat our way back to where we were, we gotta get up and do something about it before it becomes a downward spiral! In those 4 or 5 months that I was just jumping on here once in a blue moon, I still kinda watched what I ate, I still kinda exercised once in a while, and you know what, I did somehow manage to lose 3 lbs over those months instead of gain everything back that I had lost! NEVER in my life could I have done that before! In January, I was able to be convinced by one of my greatest spark friends Amy, that I really REALLY need to get back on SP regularly, and that was all it took. Since January I have been kicking butt and getting back to a regular workout routine! Eating alot healthier again, and best of all, losing more weight! Here's a pic from last month.
So I started out @ 298 lbs. and am currently @ 260 lbs. I have managed to lose 38 lbs. in a year! To me that is the best feeling ever, it makes me wonder just how much can I lose by next year! I am so pumped! I finally feel like I CAN do this! SP has given me my life back! I am so thankful for the day I found this website! I am so thankful for all my wonderful spark friends! You have all helped in your own ways and I can never thank you enough! Now, let's get out there and see what we can accomplish next! I am so excited to be living a healthier life!!!! It's the best feeling in the world! I'm going to go ahead and add the first full pic of me I posted and the most recent one so you all can see that too! :)